Money

I need money!!!!! Ugh I freaking hate college because I'm going to have to sell my soul to satan just to pay for books this semester. It's only the second day of classes and I already am stressed about the vast amount of work that I'm going to have to do this semester. Here's my classes:
Tennis
Writing about Literature
Shakespeare
French
Political Science
Western Civ

I have about 34938498349 papers to write and 9328494885 books to read.

Kill me

Finding Five Dollar Bills

I am so home sick. I just got back literally less than three days ago and I was crying last night because I want to be home so bad. It doesn't help that my phone went missing and so now I'm without my lifeline to the world. My stomach hurts all day long. Why can't I just be home right now? Why am I even here? What the fuck's the purpose of being here when I spend all my time hating it so much?

I really really really really really really really really really really don't want to go to all four of my classes today but yesterday I was a real bitch and decided to skip the whole day so I've made a pact with myself that I will not miss another class for the rest of the semester. I'm really not looking forward to it. I'm just going to have to come to terms with the fact that in order to reach the goals I want in life I'm going to have to make some sacrifices. God knows I've made so many already. And while I'm on the subject of God have you ever wondered where he is when you really really really really really just need somebody there?!?!? Sometimes I really feel God with me and other times it just all goes to shit and I begin to question my very existence in this universe.

Whatever I'm off to class.