The Truth Is You Could Slit My Throat

I feel like shit. I know you all probably think that I'm a hypochondriac or something but honestly I spent all night shivering and shaking and sweating in my bed. On top of that I'm having some serious gastro-intestinal upset. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me because this is the second time this past week I've been sick and the second time I've had these same exact symptoms this past month. James said it might be from stress, and I mean I'm stressed out alot but I don't think I have so much stress that it would make me physically ill. Ugh whatever. I'm tired of it I really am.

Ya'll are probably also thinking "well it's because she's drunk" but I'll have you know I haven't had a drop to drink since thursday night. I don't plan on drinking anytime soon either. I decided that if I spend 6/7 nights of the week drunk then I probably should cool it. The funny thing is I make it to class a lot more often with a hangover than without.

Anyways I'm going to go take a shower and then go check my mail to see if my phone has made it.......................I've spent almost 7 whole days without a cell phone. I didn't even think that was possible!!!!!

Finding Five Dollar Bills

I am so home sick. I just got back literally less than three days ago and I was crying last night because I want to be home so bad. It doesn't help that my phone went missing and so now I'm without my lifeline to the world. My stomach hurts all day long. Why can't I just be home right now? Why am I even here? What the fuck's the purpose of being here when I spend all my time hating it so much?

I really really really really really really really really really really don't want to go to all four of my classes today but yesterday I was a real bitch and decided to skip the whole day so I've made a pact with myself that I will not miss another class for the rest of the semester. I'm really not looking forward to it. I'm just going to have to come to terms with the fact that in order to reach the goals I want in life I'm going to have to make some sacrifices. God knows I've made so many already. And while I'm on the subject of God have you ever wondered where he is when you really really really really really just need somebody there?!?!? Sometimes I really feel God with me and other times it just all goes to shit and I begin to question my very existence in this universe.

Whatever I'm off to class.