The Doctor

I went to the doctor today. I just felt so bad I couldn't take it anymore. I waited for like thirty minutes in this really dark lobby and read parents magazine only because there was this article with steve carell in it. Then I went to see the doctor and he felt my stomach and then gave me this special diet that I need to be on. Then he made me go to the lab and just so I don't make this post too graphic I have to put some stool into these vials and take them back tomorrow. I must say I'm not very excited about that. Not at all. The lady thought I was retarded because she gave me this thing to catch the stools and I was like "what?!?!" and she was like "WELL THIS IS A STOOL SAMPLE!" and I was like yeah I get it but it doesn't make it any less disgusting and/or humiliating.

Anyways I'm gonna take a shower and do my homework.

Some people are mad at me right now. I said I was sorry and I don't know what else to say because I truly am sorry. I just don't feel good and my emotions spilled out like a tornado.

Finding Five Dollar Bills

I am so home sick. I just got back literally less than three days ago and I was crying last night because I want to be home so bad. It doesn't help that my phone went missing and so now I'm without my lifeline to the world. My stomach hurts all day long. Why can't I just be home right now? Why am I even here? What the fuck's the purpose of being here when I spend all my time hating it so much?

I really really really really really really really really really really don't want to go to all four of my classes today but yesterday I was a real bitch and decided to skip the whole day so I've made a pact with myself that I will not miss another class for the rest of the semester. I'm really not looking forward to it. I'm just going to have to come to terms with the fact that in order to reach the goals I want in life I'm going to have to make some sacrifices. God knows I've made so many already. And while I'm on the subject of God have you ever wondered where he is when you really really really really really just need somebody there?!?!? Sometimes I really feel God with me and other times it just all goes to shit and I begin to question my very existence in this universe.

Whatever I'm off to class.

Alex Land

I totally got some pancakes! YES!!! My friend Chris ended up taking us, and we had to wait like an hour for our food, but I got it and it was delicious. I did most of my homework that I needed to do although I still have one chapter to read for my business class, but it's only 11:20 so I'm in good shape as far as that goes. I'm going to get to class really early so that those girls don't steal my seat.

Ohhhhh and my dad is coming to eat lunch with me on Thursday!!! I'm really excited about that, only that's just going to make my freaking week & especially Brit Lit on thursday go by that much slowerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Okay well it's studying time so I will see you all in the morning. I still have to scrape something up for my Creative Writing Club meeting friday, but I think I'm going to write a poem in rima terza just like Percy Shelley.

GOOD NIGHT BLOG!