Tom Cruise

Is really creeeeeeeepyyyyyyyy

Keep a Secret Code

Hey


Fuckblogging

there is something the matter with my space bar

Fudgestix

Work Suckssssssssssss

I hate my job.

I have to work at 6 am in the morning(wtf?!?!)

Other then that life is marvelously marvelous.

I love to love!!!!!

(I love to be loved)
(I hate stupid fake bitches)

I'm Not Dead!

Just waiting on my comp still! Working hard for my money! Best blog post ever coming as soon as I get my computer!

Kroger

I got a job at Kroger! GO ME! I will now have money! Money and respect! What more could a bitch ask for?

I know I haven't updated in a while but it's so zen for me to update before bed and now I don't have a computer for another couple weeks so just bear with me.

Long Nights Hard Times

It's been a while since I've posted but my computer is still out of comission. It should be fixed soon though (I hope!). Last night I had a date with Vyron. Let's just say it was the craziest first date of my life.

I will post more soon but until then just enjoy the silence.

How You Feel Haters?

sorry about lack of updates but I've had a serious lack of a computer.


I will update when the dell bitches send the right parts and fix my shit!

Dell/Mario Kart/Wonderful Days

Today has been a pretty kick ass day. I went to tennis and knocked around a few balls with jerret then i talked to the Dell people on the phone and they're sending some guy over tomorrow and he's totally going to fix my computer right up for me!!!! SOOOOO HAPPY ABOUT THIS! Then Jerret and I had dinner and played Mario Kart and Katie came over. Now I am just sitting here in the library updating my blog ghetto style. I'm so ready for the weekend to be here so I can write my paper and just chillax. I hate wednesdays.

200th Post!

I realized about a week ago that I was coming up on my 200th blog post and I was really excited because it was going to be the most amazing post ever and rock everyone's world. Too bad my computer decided to explode so the only thing I'm going to blog about is how pissed off I am! I was just going to the bathroom listening to a little Plies on my iTunes and then I came back and noticed that the screen saver was frozen so I tried to move the mouse around but the screen went all black and fuzzy and so I didn't really worry I just restarted the computer but it did it again! Then again. So I took out the battery and it did it again! So I finally just took it to the shack and hopefully they can fix it without having to erase all the memory like they did with katie's computer. On top of that my phone just froze too so I'm having all sorts of technological issues today.

Parent's Day 2008/Almost the Greatest Football Game EVER!

Basically just got back from a very exciting SFA game. It would have been even better if we had won! Oh well. Today Jerret and I spent a large portion of time walking around antique stores in downtown Nac with my mother. I know Jerret was probably bored out of his skull, but I totally was too! I am just so happy that I got to see my parents and I don't think this day could have been any better!! Too bad I have like the worst gas ever!!! Thanks alot Butcher Boys!!!! My dad was getting really crunk at the game though! It was really funny. I also saw Erin and her parents and Kory Blandford.

Now I am about to take a shower because I am all sweaty and tired and I definitly need an energy drink.

* SUPER EDIT! *

So I totally forgot to put that Coleman (Jerret's older brother) was at the game. He was wearing a bright yellow shirt, a tie, black slacks, and tennis shoes(?!?!) lmfao. So then we saw him leaving and so I ran after him but Coleman walks really fast so Jerret and I made it to the parking lot just as Coleman was getting into the KTRE minivan and pulling away. I was very sad about this!

PS

I forgot to talk about how I saw Vyron but I want to remember this moment for the rest of my life. Jerret and I waited for Vyron at whataburger because he was late again but luckily my girl Stella was helping me get my mack on. Then Vyron walks into Whataburger like 1 hour late and I like ran up to him and gave him the biggest hug ever and literally every single person working and eating at whataburger was watching us and then I told Vyron how much I loved him and how much I missed him and then some girl behind the counter tried to say that Vyron was hers but Vyron said she was a lying ass cunt. So then I kissed him (on the lips) and then I left. It was very romantic. If you're into that kind of thing.

Dreamscapes

First and foremost I would like to say hi I have a headache. Second I need to talk about this really weird dream I had last night.
*DREAM*
Katie, Erin, James and I decided we were going to go to this barbeque place because Katie's dad had recommended it. So of course in the dream I was very wasted and we go into the barbeque place only to find out it's a japanese barbeque and not like texas barbeque. So James sits down and starts eating this weird grilled whole fish. Well just as the rest of us are getting our food Katie's dad like comes into the restaurant to surprise her. That really has nothing to do with the rest of the dream I just thought it was kind of weird because I've never even met Katie's dad lol. Well them I start to eat my Japanese soup but I am eating it with chopsticks and so I spill some on katie's jeans and she starts yelling at me about how it's going to stain and she doesn't have any spray and wash. Then I start yellingback that soup doesn't stain! Then I like storm out of the restaurant and go to this really cold bus depot and sit outside on a bench with a blanket waiting for a train to take me away.
*END OF DREAM*

I used caps lock because I think it's very important to always seperate reality from my twisted subconcious. There was also a part in my dream where I was at a club and I was dirty dancing with plies but that's besides the point.

Last night was such a good night!!!! First Jerret and I played some 007 on the N64 then we played mario kart and then we had power hour. The best part of the night I think though was during 007 when we were playing this really lame level and we had decided to go through all of the weapon choices so we were on sniper and this particular level we could never find each other. So Jerret starts like rapping to the beat of the music and the song goes a little something like this:

"Dark Chocolate" (this is a temporary name btw)
starring: Lil Wayne, Plies, Missy Elliot, Chris Brown, and Justin Timberlake

Dark chocolate (ahhhhhhh)
Dark chocolate (ahhhhhhh)
Dark chocolate dark chocolate dark chocolate

Fucking all night
Dark chocolate
Fucking all night
Dark chocolate

(there's a lot more in the middle we just haven't come up with it yet)

Then we made up a verse for Missy Elliot:
You want some choclate chips?
Jump on my chocolate hips
Then suck my chocolate nips
Come get yo suga fix

That's all we have so far. Jerret also has another song called Ceo's and seceratary hoes. GOD I AM SO HUNGRY I HOPE MY PARENTS GET HERE SOON!

Hot Dude of the Day

It's PLIESSSSS BABY!

Good Days

Today was a very good day. I actually woke up this morning and then I went to my western civ class and totally rocked that test. I was so happy that I even went to my other classes. After that Jerret and I were hanging out and we went to sunshine mart so I could get some cigarettes and guess who I saw?!?! VYRON! That's right the one and only whataburger employee of the month. So I talked to him for a few minutes and then Jerret and I went over to Katie's apartment. Then we got to go to Coleman's apartment which made my day even better because I got to put on some of coleman's cologne and it smelled really good. I also got to see Butters and his enormous testes. He's basically the cutest dog ever and I wish I could have him. Then we just hung out for a while and we went to Target and Jerret made me try to hitchike back to Nacogdoches.

Now I'm super ass tired and I just want to curl into bed with my bottle of tylenol pm and sleep forever since I don't have any classes tomorrow.

Ps- special shout out to Lauren for letting me hang out with her whilst I was drunk last night. High Fives she totally made my night the best!

Tests

I have a test tomorrow in Western Civ and I am really nervous about it. I really want to make an A but I think that's going to be impossible. Not because I'm stupid but because my teacher is definitly the type that makes it hard to get A's.

Today has been uneventful. I skipped tennis because last night it was really hot in my room so I took three tylenol PM to help me sleep because I don't sleep very well in the heat and I basically could not get up this morning.

I just ate a bagel dog from Einstein's and now I really need to fart but Katie and I are in the computer lab and everyone will hear it!!!!

Well I'm off to go study and fill my brain with the knowledge of ancient western civilizations..............................kill me please.

Toothaches

My tooth has hurt like allllllll day. Finally Katie gave me some advil and that didn't even really work so I bought some aspirin and tylenol PM at wal mart. Now I'm in my room and a) it smells kind of weird b) it's like 5000 degrees in steen.

Today was pretty pointless although I did enjoy shakespeare because my teacher is like the biggest dork ever and it's kind of like watching a television show.

That's about it for today. Sorry that nothing exciting happened in my life. Oh I know something funny after we got our quiz today in Western Civ this boy shouted out "DID ANYONE PASS THIS DAMN QUIZ?!?!"

True story. Whatever if you don't like my blog fuckkkkkkkkkk youuuuuuuuuu.

Naps

Here are some majors/classes I would be interested in:

Napping
Eating Cane's Chicken
Listening to Music
Getting Stoned
Hair Straightening
Bangs 101

Here's a class I'm interested in teaching:
The Best Bathrooms on Campus and Where to Find Them

Lessons I Have Learned

Once upon a time I really liked this guy so in a drunken haste I gave him something very valuable of mine. I have regretted it ever since.



Top 5 Things I Will Never Do For a Man:



1)Anything sexually that would make me uncomfortable

2)Ever waste money on them unless I truly loved them and they loved me back

3)Clean up after his stinky ass unless we're married and he has his own chores too (or if he's the one bringing home the money)

4)Compromise my beliefs/morals for him

5)Beg him to be with me



There's probably more but I took nyquil and now I'm tiredddddddd

A Good Nervous Breakdown

I hate college. I hate writing papers I hate studying I hate homework I hate scantrons I hate not having money I hate being sick all the time I hate ringworm which is a type of fungi on the skin that doesn't go away for four weeks and can spread like wildfire at any given moment I hate getting pimples right underneath my lip that look like a herpes outbreak I hate being sleepy all the time even when I get 9 hours of sleep the night before I hate classes at 11 am because it still seems to early I hate coffee because it makes my stomach hurt I hate my cell phone because it is ghetto and doesn't even have a camera I hate SFA because they're always trying to fuck me over I hate the SFA website because it never works right I hate junk mail I hate when nobody comments on my blog I hate crying for absolutely no reason I fucking hate french and people who speak french I hate political science and western civ I even hate shakespeare because he was a douchebag and everyone just worships the ground he walks on I hate boring lectures I hate when I buy the wrong book for a class and have no money to replace it I hate fat bitches in tennis who wear arm slings but then take them off after class and ride down the street on thier bikes I hate my addiction to facebook I hate having a 24/7 stomach ache that never goes away I hate being 20 and feeling like a 80 year old woman I hate when people ask stupid ass questions I hate when people have really bad breath I hate when people put their mother fucking guitars in the seat that I was just about to sit in during french class I hate when I get a toothace I hate when my hair looks like a mullet I hate the fact that I only fit into one pair of jeans and they are like bustin apart at the seams I hate when people say they're going to help me with something and then just totally forget about me I hate when I am a quitter I hate when I don't understand something I hate when I write a paper that's a total bunch of bullshit and get a bad grade on it I hate when I fail at anything I hate Steen and want to set it on fire I hate people that are rude for no god damn reason I hate having heartburn everytime I eat pizza I hate that I have hair on my toes I hate pretty much everything about my body and the way I look I hate that one girl in sixth grade who walked up to me for no reason and said I was the ugliest person she had ever seen

Chinese Food

Jerret came back today!!! Very happy!!!

Jerret Katie and I went to get chinese food and now my stomach hurts very bad. Like it will probably explode and a little green alien will pop out.

Do you ever wish that life didn't move so incredibly fast? I know that I do sometimes I just wish there was a pause button and I would have an infinite amount of time to get things done. I wonder if this would make my life any better?

Spa Nights

Katie and I had a spa night last night and we did fun activities like pedicures, facials with cucumbers, and biore strips. It was basically the best night of my life because in between pedis we went to whataburger and I got to see Vyron and he said he was going to call me. I'm really happy about this and then he told me that the reason he was upset yesterday is because he is sick and doesn't feel good. Then I think everyone at whataburger was amazed at my sobriety and Vyron said he likes me better sober because when I am drunk I am a "sexmaniac". Katie and I laughed really hard at this. Now I'm about to finish reading Richard III because I have to write a paper over it tonight and it sucks but whatever that's my life. I work better under pressure anyways.

Chillin @ Whataburger

Tonight was......................................

really weird to say the least. First of all Katie and I studied at the student center. Then we came back to the apartment and watched some Cops which we both like because it's an amazing show. Then we went to whataburger which is what we planned on doing. Unfortunatly when we got there BOOGIE was there! Not only that but he was there with that little hoodrat. I was really angry. I kept my cool though because I just didn't even feel like getting crunk! Well then I went outside to smoke a cigarette and as thier car drove away I screamed "FUCK YOU BOOGIE". Because I hate him.

Then we proceeded to wait for an hour for Vyron to get to work only for him to be all in a bad mood and totally diss me. So I told Darryl this other really nice guy that works at Whataburger to tell Vyron that I was real sad. Then we came back to the apartment and I just gagged down two nyquil and hopefully I'm about to pass out.

I'm really sad that Jerret left for the weekend but I'm glad that I have the most amazing friends ever: Katie, Erin, Kory and Mary and that they sat with me while I waited to see Vyron. Katie was really nice about it and I love her alot! IDK what I would do without her!!!

Oh and also while we were waiting Kory told us the three most retarded stories ever. First of all I had a hard time taking him seriously because he was wearing swimming trunks and I know he wasn't going swimming. Then he told us these stories about when he used to work at Jack in the Box and the only good part to the stories was when someone threw a big ass cup of strawberry fanta on him. He's still definitly the coolest guy in the universe which is what we figured out tonight at Whataburger.

Stuffy Noses & Stalker Tips

Here's some quick tips for all you wannabe stalkers:

1) Call the person's place of work at least 3-4 times a day
2) Drive past person's place of work at least 3-4 times a day
3) Write about person in blog/conversations daily


Anywaysssssssss I'm a total stalker. I'm also having a coughing attack right now and my nose is all stuffy. Today I saw my papa bear and he bought me some shit that I needed because I'm poorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Okay well this blog post sucks but honestly my life is boring now! I'm really sad because Jerret is leaving tomorrow but Katie and I will definitly have a good weekend studying!



NOT! The only highlight of my weekend will be if my ringworm clears up. I've been putting my anti-fungal cream on it and it already looks a little better. Well anyways I just took some nyquil so I'm getting really sleepy.

I really don't want to go to tennis tomorrow.

Library Time

So I'm in the library studying with Jerret and Katie and I feel really bad because I haven't been keeping up with my blog. I have a pretty horrible cold and my nose won't stop running. Luckily my dad is coming to see me tomorrow so I will feel a lotttt better!

It's really cold in here so I am going to go and wrap up in my blankie and study some more!

PS- I saw Josh Kelly and it pretty much made my night/life

Lay Lady Lay

I'm about to go back to sleep. The only reason I woke up this morning was to go to the quack shack and get some meds.

Fish 'N Chips

I'm sick. Again. Whatever.

Jen's b-day was really fun and thanks to hurricane Ike I didn't have to go to school today. I'm really happy because that means no French for me!!! Too bad I feel like shit and can't even enjoy it.

I'm gonna go to sleep and hopefully when I wake up I will feel 100% better.

Party Like It's 1999

Well Ike much sucks and whataburger is closed and peking is closed and sunshine mart is closed and they didn't have marlboro 27's at wal mart and tonight is Jen's b-day party but all the power went out in the apartment so we may have to party by candlelight. It's still going to be amazing. I'm totally going to kill a 24 pack of bud.

Dad's Advice

Just to be honest sometimes my dad gives me real crap advice. I love my dad pretty much more than anyone on the planet except maybe my mom/sister who I equally love and cherish even though sometimes it's harder to get along/live with them. Tonight though he said something that I think is really the truth and I really appreciate him telling me. I was telling him about all the drama with my friends and everything which btw is kinda stupid and so ninth grade although I wouldn't really know because I didn't have any friends in high school. Anyways he was listening to me and then he started asking me about school and I said that it was just a big load of crap. He was kind of angry about this and he told me simply that I would be happier if I made good grades. He is absolutely positively 100% right. I'm done with all this other bullshit. I love being with my friends but there are things in my life that I need to prioritize. I really don't want to be on academic probation or have to worry at the last second of the semester that none of my papers have been written and that I'm failing a class and need to make a 100 on a test to pass. So from now on it's turbo drive Alex. Fuck everything else I got shit I have to do.

Potheads

Being a pothead seems cool but only when you're stoned. When you see other potheads it doesn't seem as fun they just look stupid

Anthology of the Best Day of My Life

Yesterday was the greatest day of my life. Even though I was angry during one part of it, it still turned out to be a super great day. I wish that every day would be perfect. I wish that I could always make other people happy too. Unfortunately some people just like to bottle up things in thier life and not talk to thier friends. It's sad.

PS-I'm writing a musical/play about the best day of my life and it's going to be amazing.

I Got the Remedy

My side of the room looks like a disaster area. I feel sorry for my roommate. I just got out of class and took a long ass cold shower because I was seriously sweating it up since I freaking walked out the damn door. I didn't even play in tennis because the teacher sat and talked about how to keep score and all that and then he was like well you only have ten minutes so just do whatever. I smoked a cigarette.

I really don't want to study tonight.

I will though because I want to get out of here sometime in my life!!

Hot Dude of the Day

I thought he was a flat chested girl at first................

Greek Plays Suck

I just took my book test over the 7 famous greek plays. Bombed that shit. Technically it's only like 2% of the final grade though so I think I'll be fine. I just kept reading and reading and like nothing would process in my brain. Even when I was alone by myself reading it there was still this internal monologue going through my head of everything. Just random crap would start going through my mind and I would come to the realization that even though I had been reading for 30 minutes I didn't know what the funk I had just read. That's really going to have to change soon. I mean not everything that I'm going to read in college is going to be interesting but processing this information into my brain is really important.

It's so hot outside I don't know how much more of this whack ass nacogdoches weather that I can take. Last night there was a fire drill in Steen and I really needed to get my book out of my room but the stupid bitch wouldn't let me go into the even tower even though it was the odd tower that was having the fire alarm. I was super pissed because that meant that Katie and I had to stand outside in the like 90 degree muggy ass weather for a good thirty minutes and I just about wanted to start a real fire in the dorm just because I was so angry.

After we studied Jerret and Katie and I went back to Erin and Katie's apartment and made pizzas and then Jerret and I played this really fun game that Danielle and I used to play in high school. We spent like three hours just laughing and asking the most retarded questions and after about 10 minutes I just decided to be a total lesbian and I had to start picking like which actress I would rather have sex with and it was just sooooooooooo funny. Katie even had to tell us to be quiet because she was trying to sleep and she's been really sick and even had to stuff nosepons in her nose to keep the snot from dripping. We finally passed out at like three AM and Jerret was on the air matress and I was sleeping on these two really big pillows but like our heads were facing each other and I kept feeling Jerret's hand smack my face like all night long! Thanks Jerret!! Then I was awoken this morning by Huxley trying to chomp my hair and then he stepped on my face with his big ol puppy paws.

I do have like a really good piece of news: Jerret said he would let me meet his brother!!! I am so excited because I have never met a real life celebrity before (well besides Adam Lazzara from Taking Back Sunday and Bill Clinton) but I kinda wish I hadn't met Bill Clinton because then I got really sick with diahread and I'm pretty sure I had his diseaseeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I'm now contemplating whether or not I want to go sit outside in the heat and wait for Jen and Erin or just sit here in the library facebook stalking.

Oh yeah I almost forgot that I went to see my hubby Vyron at whataburger last night and he wasn't even working!!! I was sad :(.

Bible Dipping

I just did a bible dip and in a way I am satisfied with what God told me. It's kind of like a telephone straight to the big man himself!!!

Red Sox Fans, Hector, and Terrence

Erin and I had so much fun at the game last night!!! There was this very drunk red sox fan that basically made the whole night. He was the biggest douchebag in the world and that made it even funnier. Then Erin and I went to find the starbucks in the stadium and this mean guy yelled that they closed it down then erin wanted the ice cream in the little baseball helmet and they don't have those anymore either!! So then I flirted with this super hot dude named Terrence who worked at the cold beer stand. Then we went to get Ice Cream and this other hot dude named Hector basically wanted to have sex with Erin.

We had a great weekend. Check the facebook!

Tawakoni

Last night Erin and I arrived in Tawakoni at like 9:45. Not after many adventures though of course. We stopped at this one gas station and they just so happened to have those condom dispensers with the different types of condoms and lubes. So we bought like three of them and then made the guy that works at the gas station take a picture of us with them. Then we had to stop at this really sketchy gas station outside of Tawakoni and I was scared because there were daddy long legs. Then we finally made it to my house after the following playlist:

Plies
Miley Cyrus
Love Song
Hannah Montana 1&2
Spice Girls

We woke up at like 9 30 and then we walked to the lake and got aids on our feet probably because we dipped our feet in the lake. Then we called Jerret and Katie and laughed at Jen's text messages because she spelled question "guestion". Now we're watching wife swap. We're bored obviously but tonight is the rangers/redsox game so it's going to be amazing!!!

Hot Dude of the Day

Please disregard my face and just witness the hotness that is Jerret Swierc. Also please direct your attention below this post where I have blogged about my day thus far.

Boogie's That Need to be Picked

Wow. Where do I even begin with today? Let's start with hot bicycle dude. Erin was driving me to school today because she's an amazing friend and as we were driving up University we saw this guy on a bicycle. Erin was like "Is he wearing a shirt?!" Because we were behind him and all you could see was his backpack so I assumed he was wearing a tank top or something. So then we passed him up and I was like "OMG nooooooo!!!" he was probably the hottest bicycle dude I've ever seen and I've seen a lot of hot bicycle dudes in my day! So then we were stopped at the red light and I rolled down the window so that I could wolf whistle at him except he had his ipod in so it just looked like I was staring at him. This is the best part: he totally smiled at me!!!! I almost died!!!!!

After that Erin pushed me out of the car in front of the tennis courts and I sat and watched Jerret and this hot black dude play tennis for like 20 minutes. Then I went with Jerret to his Communications class and ran into Boogie. Then Boogie called me a punk ass and I told him to go fuck himself. Then I was really happy. Because I hate him. I changed my mind and I don't love him anymore.

There's some other news but I totally don't want to blog it right now.

I went to the language lab and did some French stuff which basically involved me playing the little French soccer game and basically getting every answer wrong. I hate French. Then I came back to the apartment and played with Huxley for like an hour which was fun because he was acting psychotic. Now I'm just playing some super mario brothers and I'm about to rule this game.

I will be in Tawakoni tonight!!! YAY!!!!!!! Can't wait to see my little weezer baby boy!!!!!

PS- Katie is sexy.

I Changed My Mind

First item of business:

Erin and I went to Taco Bueno and I really wanted this 99 cent cilantro lime rice because it's like the rice at chipotle and it's really good so we ordered it and the guy was like "well we're all out of that" and I was really depressed but then when we got to the window he was like "do you want a free smoothie?" and Erin and I were like "hells yes please!" So as we were drinking the smoothie we were driving back to Erin and Katie's apartment and this freaky old guy waved at us and Erin and I agreed that freaks are attracted to us like magnets and that when we're together they are doubly attracted to us. Case in point: Miah and Phillip.

So anyways I have a great plan for tomorrow so that I can "accidently" run into a certain someone who is going to be getting a little piece of my mind. This involves skipping tennis again but whatever.

Also today while Jerret and I were at schlotzkys katie called and she was really upset so then I went with her to the quack shack and they drew some blood and as we were leaving there was this long line to get into the clinic and I was like "well good thing you'll have the test results back from your STD screening Katie!" I was trying to embarass her but we just laughed. I am praying that all of her results come back okay and that she starts to feel better because I gotta have my BFFL feeling good!!!!

Hot Dude of the Day

Yes Jerret I went there.

Notes On My Life

I am pretty tired because it's like 2 in the morning but I skipped tennis today and slept in. Yeah yeah so I skipped a class on the second week but come onnn it's tennis and besides that it was raining so I knew we wouldn't be playing anywaysssss. So I slept in and went to Writing about Literature where I learned what an elipses (sp?) is. I was apparently the only person who didn't know but I think everyone else just wanted to look smart. I hate all English majors (besides Luke!) because they all think they know everything and it's really annoying. If you knew everything you wouldn't be in college so just stop being a bunch of pretentious assholes and get over yourselves. Another thing I have noticed about English majors (well the male ones at least) is that they don't like to shower very often so you need to be wise about who you pick to sit next to (this also doesn't apply to Luke lol).

Katie read me this story today called Henry's freedom box and it was about this slave whose family gets taken away from him so he gets in a box and is mailed to freedom in pennsylvania. At the end of the story I was like "well what happened to his family?" and Katie was like "Never saw them again" and shrugged her shoulders. It was really sad. I'm going to read stories like that to my children some day so they will understand the kind of world that we live in. I'm going to be real honest with them too. I think my life wouldn't be so dissapointing if my parents had read me more stories like that. I already have a good one in mind: "Working at Super Target until you Die". It's going to be for ages 3-6.

Well anyways Katie and Jerret and I played a little Super Nintendo today and I suck at Super Mario and fucked up all of Jerret's hard work. Sorry!!! Then I stalked his brother who works for KTRE. Then we facebook creeped because it's what we do best.

Well I'm going to bed. Well actually I'm going to write an email and then go to bed but whatevs.

My Most Favorite People in the World

In no particular order:

Katie, Erin, Jerret, Jen

Why:

Because they are awesome

Hurricane Gustav

There is totally a hurricane headed for Nacogdoches as I type this. I will probably be dead before the morning light. I'm in a very dramatic mood.

I woke up this morning just feeling like absolute shit (not physically but mentally). I don't know what it is with me but I have like severe mood swings where one second I will be perfectly happy and the next thing I know the tiniest of things will set me off crying. Sometimes I don't even know what it is I am crying about. It's just sometimes no matter how happy I am or how much fun I am having I just feel like there's something really fucked up with me. Like there's a part of me that's missing or something. It's weird because I honestly have no idea what it is. It gets me into these funks. I'm not really worried about them because they usually only last a couple hours and I cry and get over them but it happens four or five times a week.

This has officially been the most depressing blogpost ever..........

Anyways my pinky finger which I thought I broke is doing a lot better. The swelling has gone down and it's not as colorful as it was. It's kind of hard to type and to write still but I think I'll be 100% in a couple of days.

One more item of business before I go to bed and finish reading the taming of the shrew (which is pretty damn funny btw but I like the Heath Ledger movie wayyyy better sorry shakespeare).

Today I was in one of my moods so I kind of just wanted to be alone so Katie and I went to Wal Mart. We talked for a long time and we just got a lot of things out in the open that needed to be out. I know that Eriniqua is upset at me and I want to say sorry to her but I just think it's better if I leave everyone alone for a while and just focus on school and finding a job because basically every single friendship/boyfriend/thing in my life I always find ways to fuck it up. EVERYTHING. I'm like the mirror opposite of king midas. I'm tired of fucking shit up so from now on I'm just gonna do the right things always and be perfect. I know that will never happen but I'm at least going to strive for it.

OMG! It's officially september!

I'm pretty sure I spelled officially wrong. Okay I spell checked it and we're all good. We're going to have the drunkest person of the night contest and I definitly think that goes to jerret becau:se he was a making out fool.

Things that happened today:

1) I made out with Vyron at whataburger
2)Jerret and Katie got into a fight and it was funny
3) Jen walked in on me butt naked in the bathroom
4) Mary booty danced on basically everyone
5) My finger is all swollen and jacked up and then katie's fingers got all swollen and jacked up too
6) I thought I won the lottery only to realize that it was eighteen and not eight

Good times

Peace Easy!!!

Boys

Boys are pointless and only cause problems. Let's just be real I'm not planning on getting married anytime soon so why should I even be worried about it. I have my whole life to meet someone. There's no point in getting sad or jealous about somebody.

I just got the most amazing e-mail from Tammy with little sound bites of Zachary singing and saying his prayers at night. Sooooo cute.

Here are some highlights from the first week of school:

1) Tennis with Jerret and our old ass teacher who played in the very first wimbledon
2) Spending every night at Katie and Erin's apartment
3) Laughing all night with Katie and making up rap songs about everyone
4) Not knowing shit in french and laughing at the douchebags that think they do
5) Flashing all the guys outside of Hall 16
6) Seeing hot dudes play shirtless soccer on the intramural fields
7) Seeing hot dudes in general
8) Making matching t-shirts for the game on Saturday
9) Creating new dance moves with Jerret
10) Erin's dog chomping on my face
11) Seeing Erin in her bra
12) Making hamburgers and then smelling the stinky rotten beef smell coming from the grill everytime we went outside
13) Going to lake nac and learning all about Kory Gengo
14) Having my friends fight over who would come get me after Boogie left me in tears

I'm so glad that I am back with everyone here. I've decided that you're born with a family (mom dad brothers sisters etc) but then when you get to college you have a chance to pick a second family. They are alot like your real family in that you enjoy the same things and they are there for you and they don't judge you and you do everything together but you kind of appreciate them more because you are the one that got to pick them out.

Hot Dude of the Day

Money

I need money!!!!! Ugh I freaking hate college because I'm going to have to sell my soul to satan just to pay for books this semester. It's only the second day of classes and I already am stressed about the vast amount of work that I'm going to have to do this semester. Here's my classes:
Tennis
Writing about Literature
Shakespeare
French
Political Science
Western Civ

I have about 34938498349 papers to write and 9328494885 books to read.

Kill me

First Day

It's 8:21 am. I am awake. WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?! First day of school bitches. I have so much to write and talk about but it's seriously going to have to wait because I have to straighten out the bangs babayyyyy.

It's Plies BABAYYYYYYYYYy. lmfao

Organizers

OKAY! Let's just start out with how much I hate Target. I got a planner two years ago and I really liked the way the pages were because there was alot of room to write down my assignments and things I needed to remember to do everyday. So I went to get some refill pages but they didn't have the kind I wanted so I found this really kickass planner that has like tons of room to write down assignments and basically anything and it has space for me to put all my credit cards and shit. So I went to get another one and it was the same old story they didn't have anymore like the ones I like. So I had to go to stupid Office Max.

That was basically a lame ass story but it just pisses me off that they can't have the same shit!!!!!!!

Going back to school in one more day!!! HELL YEAH BITCHES!

I Am Officially Over It

I'm still in Tawakoni unfortunately. I've actually been quite entertained though by my neighbor Jolene and her three grandchildren. This morning I called them over from across our two houses and they came to the pool to look for frogs. We opened up the basket that catches all the leaves and stuff and there was a little baby rat floating and we all were freaked out. I covinces Austin to get the rat out so that he could show it to his grandma Jolene who is like completly freaked out by any little creature. So he starts carrying around in a pair of scuba goggles but he was running after all three of us pretending to throw it. I was really scared! Finally my mom ran out of the garage where she is sanding a chair and told him to throw it in the woodpile. It was hilarious. Children are funny.

Ps-I know someone didn't just request marco polo by lil bow wow.

Plastic Cheese

I'm eating a sandwhich right now and I put a very sketchy looking piece of cheese on it and it kind of tastes like plastic.

Today was good I guess. I went with my parents so they could visit some old friends and this one guy named Larry kept falling down because he has a bad leg and he was drinking or something. He fell three times including once basically on top of me. It was scary!

Laugh at the Embarassment

I was obviously not the cool kid in school. The bottom one is my brother and sister.

Margarite

This is my beautiful friend Margarite. I met her this summer while I was staying at my sister's apartment in Round, Rock Texas. She's such a wonderful person and friend and I was really sad that I had to leave her behind! She's the greatest person to just be around because she is so full of positive energies. I LOVE HER!!! I MISS HER TOO!!!

I hope Kathy doesn't mind I used this pic from thier myspace!!!

All About Today

I woke up at like 3 pm which I actually woke up at like 10 but I was still tired so I was like screw it I'm just going to go back to sleep. Then I facebooked for a really long time because it's what I do best. Then I talked to Erin and Jen and I am super jealous cuz they are already both back in Nac and it makes me sad. Then I talked to my mom's friend Carol on the phone for like literally an hour. It was really really really long conversation about her two cats and her bunny.

Now I'm watching the matrix because I really don't want to bend over and change the channel.

In case anyone cares my fish Malachi is still alive and as fiesty as ever.

Okay I've been watching the olympics and there's this little girl named Shawn Johnson who is a gymnast for team USA. Anyways I don't know about the rest of the world but she just has the type of face that I just want to slap. She looks like a little full of herself bitch and I hate her.

Okay well lol I'm done with that.

Also the little Chinese bitches really need to get hair barretts that match thier uniform because they have like 90000 hair clips in thier hair and it's ugly.

Hot Dude of the Day

James Franco YUM!

I AM BACK!

So I'm back and better than ever bitches!!! I am so excited about the upcoming school year!!! Some things I am excited about:

1)Sceduled naptimes
2)Being back in Steen
3)Having a job and making money!!!
4)Getting a new roommate!
5)Seeing Eriniqua and Jenaynay
6)Jenaynay's b-day
7)Erin's b-day
8) Lunches and/or dinners with Marie and Jordan and Allison!
9)Allison living in Steen!!!
10)Jerret living in the same tower of Steen!!!!!!!
11)Getting drunk on weekdays
12)Coming up with new ideas for reality shows with Jerret
13)Taking 300-level English classes finally!!!
14)All new teachers!!!
15)$1 dollar movies
16)Meeting other creepy guys at the Ag Pond late at night
17) Write Club meetings w/Luke and Dr. Whatley!!
18)Raising hell in Hall 14 with Jen again!!!!
19)Barfing on random guys towels at the Shack!!
20)Hot new freshmen man meat!!!

Now I am going to go do some more facebooking and tv watching!

I Fail

I fail at this blog seriously. I can't believe how lame I am. Truly and utterly a disaster.

Time Flies When You're...............Bored Out of Your Skull?!?!

I seriously cannot wait til next week when I will be out of this town and with my wonderous roommate(ex roommate?) at her estate in Iowa Park, Texas. So if any stalkers are reading this (haha yeah right) you can come stalk me there!

I wish my life was interesting enough to blog about.

It's not.

I love everyone who reads my blog-special shoutout to Mariezy who's basically the only one who reads it!! That doesn't mean you're weird Marie it means you're "unique"!!!

Okay bye cruel sad world

Harry Potter

Okay so because I have been so flipping bored over the break I've been rereading the Harry Potter series. I'm on #5 right now and I just have few questions for JK Rowling to answer.

1) It was proved in book 2 that Hagrid wasn't the one who opened the Chamber of Secrets so why didn't he get his wand back and his wizarding powers in the end?!?!?

2) When they go to the Quiddich world cup or whatever why do the wizards have such a hard time wearing muggle clothing considering that during the ride to Hogwarts all of the wizard children wear muggle clothes?

3) Why don't they take regular classes like math and english. How are they going to know how to read a write?! I mean sure thier parents can teach them at home but they go to Hogwarts when they are eleven how would you like to be reading at a fifth grade reading level for the rest of your life?!

4) Why do Harry and his friends always get rewarded in the end even though they've broken a million rules and people are always dying?

5) Shouldn't they have to like retake thier last year of school?

Anyways this is the dorkiest post ever and as I remember more of the questions I had I will post them but this is just a testament to how bored I truly am.

A Message To My Blog

Dear Blog,


You are boring the shit out of me.

Love Always,
Alexandra Marie Cavnar
The First

BORING

Whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr



FUCKERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS



My mother says I need to clean up my mouth and to that I say "fuck it".



Life

is

too

short

to

worry

about

what

other

people

think.

Some Quick Facts About My Life/Me

1) The most exciting thing that happened to me today is I saw a man that looks like Don Nelson while I was at home depot with my dad.

2) I can't sleep that's why I am up at 4:30 in the morning.

3) The man that I love doesn't love me back.

4) I am afraid of the dark.

5) I hate watching television.

6) I also hate doing dishes which is why I pretend to be sick every night so I don't have to do them.

7) My best friend doesn't answer my phone calls.

8) None of my other friends ever call me or answer my calls either.

9) I'm pretty sure if I die in my sleep it will be a good 24 hours before my parents discover my corpse.

10) I don't have any money due to the fact that I don't have a job.

I AM SO FUCKING BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Hot Dude of the Day

I AM SO BORED

This is a serious S.O.S. I am so fucking bored here in Tawakoni that I want to rip my own hair out. The only thing to do is sleep and sit on facebook literally all day. The amount of time I spend on Facebook is quite frightening. I drank like half a bottle of codiene last night just because there was nothing on television. Now I'm all out and I have to wait until my surgery before I get some more.

Tomorrow my sister is coming from Austin and I am praying that that will make me a little less bored although my sister isn't known for being the world's most exciting person ever.

The other night I was walking out to the pool to smoke and I accidently stepped on my cat but I thought it was a snake. I have a really good idea for a story so I think I might write that tonight after everyone goes to bed and is off of facebook. I'm ready to go due to the fact that I took a four hour nap. Something really smells weird in this room.

Hot Dude of the Day

On Being Bored

I am so damn bored. I really have nothing else to post besides the fact that I am so bored.

Yesterday my mother and I went to wal mart and this lady almost ran me over with her cart.

I have a bugbite on my tattoo and it really itches.

I'm in love with somebody

Hot Dude of the Day

Sick

I've basically been sick since my last post. I got tonsilitis the week before finals and pretty much almost died. It turned into the abcess behind my tonsil even though I was taking anitbiotics for like two weeks. Long story short I'm finally feeling better and can swallow whole foods. And no I did no get tonsilitis from blow jobs. Just to clear up that myth.

I'm pretty sure noone reads this anymore but whatever. I really don't have anything interesting to post because I have been sick since school let out. All of my finals went well except for History which I wasn't able to make it to because it was on that monday and I was still like at the heigth of my illness so I'm going to be going back to Nacogdoches sometime soon to take the test. This is good because I will have time to study to make a super good grade.

I'm also going to be looking for a job starting next week. I'll hopefully get my tonsils out sometime early in the week and then I'll be able to start looking. This week has been uneventful so far. I went to the doctor today and Thursday I'm going into Dallas to talk at the Catholic Charities as a favor for Cindy Newton.

I know I'm always complaining about Nacogdoches but I honestly miss it. I am so bored here and it's weird to not be surrounded by my amazing wonderful friends like all day.

Anyways I'm going to go back to watching BET and playing online games.

Being Home

I got home yesterday at 6:30 pm. My mother made me dinner, and then I went to sleep at like 10 because I was super tired. I learned some bad news yesterday: one of our other cats went missing like two weeks ago. Her name is Tiger Lilly and I've had her since I was in 3rd grade. Now we only have three cats :(. Anyways I went to bed at like 10 but at like 11:30 somebody texted me. Then I was awake for like two hours then went back to sleep.

I'm still sick. When I woke up this morning my throat was sore. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'd really like to just have my whole throat removed. Just so you all know it's not from blow jobs!

God I am so bored and sick. Being home sucks.

Hot Dude of the Day

lol it's Boogie

The Hardest Emotion to Describe

Tomorrow I am leaving for the summer!!! WHOOP WHOOP! It's so weird for me to understand what is going on in my brain. In a way I am so flipping excited that I have no more school work and that I am going to be home with absolutely nothing to do all day. I'll get to sleep and swim and get a job so I will finally have some money!!!!! On the other hand I am super depressed about leaving Nacogdoches. I know I bitch about it all the time and how boring and gay and depressing etc etc etc it is, but I will be really sad when thursday rolls around and there's no trouble to get into. No hanging out for hours doing nothing and feeling like I've done something really fun with my friends. No late nights of Golden Girls and laughing with the roomie. No more drives around campus yelling out the car window. No more Cane's.

But I will be back next semester where I can get my fill of these fun things I suppose. I'm really going to miss the following people and things:

Katie(BFF)
Erin(roommate of the year 07-08)
Jen(craziest drunk girl I know)
Marie(my first college insta-best-friend)
Jordan(coolest chick I know basically)
Allison(best girl to have play dates with and watch spit in the steen elevator)
Jerret(also fun for play dates and randomly meeting people and coming to thier roooms where they proceed to get you trashed)
Everyone in Hall 14(because they're like a second family)
Boogie(even though I've only known him for like a week hahahha)
Sitting outside of steen late at night(I love drunk people and being drunk)
running into random people I've made out with(told you I like being drunk)
Running into random guys I've bitten or gave hickies to(I'm an alchoholic basically)
Going to the Ag pond late at night to fish(that's what they call it nowadays)
Having kick ass birthday parties where people almost get shot(only at steen)
Meeting hot roommates(KRIS)
Making new friends everywhere you go

AGH I'M SO SAD!

Okay to make myself happy here are three people I will certainly not miss

Phillip
Miah
Marcus

Hmmmm

So I haven't updated my blog in a while (I wonder why?!?!). I don't think I'm done with it, but as of right now I'm probably not going to update until school's over in two weeks. Things are way too heavy in Nacogdoches right now to write about.

Just know that I am okay and that I will be even better when I am back home!

Fun Times Fishing!

Erin, Katie and I just got done fishing and I caught three fish with my amazing Barbie fishing pole that Erin bought me! Then Katie caught a big ass perch and Erin caught a little baby perch! It was sooooooooooo much fun!!! Tomorrow we're definitly going to catch catfish fa sho!

Best Weekend Ever/Hot Dude of the Day

So I had the best weekend ever! I'll post more about it later but for your reading enjoyment..........hot dude of the day!

I Am a Girl With alot on her Plate

I don't even have anything to blog about to be perfectly honest. Tomorrow we leave for Galveston. I'm so happy to be getting out of Nac!!!!

Sobriety

Today is my dad's seventh year being sober! I'm so happy for him! I have literally the best dad in the whole entire universe. He came to see me today and I just love that I can tell him everything and anything, that he's always there when I need him I know if I cry he'll be there for me. I LOVE MY DADDY!

Regrets

I(almost) never have any regrets for the things I say or do. I only have one regret in my whole life. I wish I didn't have this because it's a big one. I always try not to think about it, but it's really hard to push something so huge out of my brain. The only time it's easy are the times when you think I'm making the wrong decisions. Fuck you all.

What's A Girl To Do?

Blah I'm sleepy. I'm tired of blogging.

When I Was Broke I Had To Hustle 'Til Dawn

I cleaned my room up yesterday. Well kinda. I washed all my clothes, my sheets, cleaned off my desk, and picked up all the trash. Now I just need to take the trash out, straighten up, and then vacuum. Anyways I took my business test today and I don't think I did all that bad considering how little I actually pay attention during that class. Mostly I just doodle and sleep, and I probably wouldn't even be sleepy if he didn't turn the lights out during the lecture! I think that should be illegal because it just really sets the mood especially when it's the first class of the day!

Anyways James just came over and we talked for a little while because I didn't see him all weekend(can you believe that?!?!). Now I'm about to take a nap because that's just what I do, and then I will probably hang out with James or Katie tonight and get some reading done for English because I am way behind the times in that class. LESS THAN ONE MONTH OF SCHOOL LEFT! YAY!

Slumber Party @ Katie's!

I spent the night with Katie last night because my roommate went home this weekend and I didn't want to be alone. So first we went to the pool and got sunburned all over and then Katie took me to get a manicure and pedicure which I must say looks very good. We sat next to each other while we got our pedicures and we set the massage chair on "airbag" which is where it like massages your butt and we just were laughing the whole time. Then the little asian man made fun of my laugh. I wanted to marry him though because he massaged my feet and really got in there good, he even peeled the skin off this blister I had on my pinkie toe! Then we went to Cane's which in case you don't know is our BFF restaurant. Then we went and got two movies at Hastings (Awake and 30 Days of Night). Then we went back to my room where I discovered something really wonderful and if you're wondering what it is just txt message me (9728049914) because I really don't want to post it on my bloggy blog. Then we went to Katie's apartment and took the mattresses off of the beds and then put them in the living room in front of the television so that we could watch the scary movies. We watched 30 Days of Night first which is this really creepy vampire movie. It wasn't really scary it was more of like "WTF?!" probably if I were high it would have been a really really like Oscar award worthy movie. Then we started watching Awake but we fell asleep so we finished it this morning. I really like the movie even though I think Hayden Christensen is like the worst actor on planet earth. Terrence Howard was in it and he's pretty hot if you ask me.

Well anyways we just woke up and I think Katie fell back asleep. I really need to take a shower because I never took one yesterday after we got back from the pool which is really nasty. I also really need to study because i have a business test tomorrow which is really going to suck balls. I just have to make a 90 on it to keep my A-average so I'm not really that worried. Anyways my nails look really good. Katie and I got matching colors and my ass really hurts because it is sunburnt and on fire.

Anyways I'm gonna go take a shower and all that jazz, but I will post more later!!!

Hot Dude of the Day

HAHAHAHA! Wow I love Facebook creepin people from my school and finding little gems such as this!

Hot Dude(s) of the Day!

Special edition!!! Two hot dudes for the price of one! The guy on the left lives two doors down from me and I stole this picture off of Jonathan Palmer's Facebook SORRY!! It was just too good to pass up!

Wednesday Nights

Blah. That's all I have to say about that. I'm working on my paper right now and I just need one more paragraph before I start editing(which is 50% of the writing process!). It took me less that thirty minutes to get all the words onto the page. I'm impressed with how well I work under pressure. I just kill myself!

Anyways something very interesting happened to me today. I was in Einstein's buying a diet dr pepper before biology lab because I was super thirsty as hell (by the way I went to all of my classes today woot woot!). So some random ass guy comes up to me talking about how I bit his neck at the sports shack that one thursday when I got really shitty. I just couldn't believe it! I was sooooooooooo embarassed. Then he said he told his friend he was "about to get up on me"!!!! SICK! I want to say that he's a total creep but I guess I'm the one that bit his neck! So weird. Just soooooooooooooooooooooo weird the things that I do when I am drunk!

Well at least I've stopped drinking for the time being because I was starting to scare myself(and Katie, Erin &Jen).

So tonight I am going to Prince Eric's softball game (that's if it doesn't rain!) and i'm sure it will be just tons of fun!!!!!!!!!!

Argh I'm so needing to finish my paper, but I think I'll go grab a smoke really quick first!

About That.....

Ugh I have a paper due thursday. For some reason I thought it wasn't due until next week. Looks like I'm going to be working on a paper all night long.


ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.


Sometimes I just feel like screaming. So last night was interesting to say the least.

Very interesting.

My Weekend In 60 Seconds

The internet is still not working in my room. I'm about to go crazy. I decided I'll make a short post about my weekend:

Friday-Katie and I had a deal that if we went to all of our classes we would get our drinks on Friday night. Which we did. I got crazy and Katie and I got into a fight and so I left and went to Marcus' room where I proceeded to make a fool of myself. He kicked me out of his room and I was really sad so I went to find James who had left about an hour before that(I didn't know) and so I pounded on his door for ten minutes thinking that he was ignoring me, then I passed out in the hallway. Erin came and tried to wake me up but couldn't so then she got Cory and this guy Adam who are both friends of Marcus' to help take me back to my room.

Saturday- Katie, Jen and I were hanging out basically all day, we went to the pool with Erin and got on some of the two seater floats to go down the lazy river and we started a "slut train" and at one point had like 12 people on the slut train with us. Later that night we went to IHOP and some old bitch yelled at us.

Sunday- Soooo boring. Went to church then Katie and I spent 5 hours at the pool where we both got sunburns. Erin, Katie, James and I hung out but then I got really sleepy and went to sleep early(which for me is 12:30). We didn't even get to watch talk sex!

Now I just got out of class and I'm about to go to Katie's so that we can come to the library so she can do her homework or something. I'm starving my ass off and I look like a fucking tomato because my face is red. The worst part is that I was wearing sunglasses and so now I have red cheeks, a red forehead, and white eyes!! Whatever.

No Internet

The internet is not working in my room and so I haven't been able to post a blog, and also I'm in the student center right now so I can't post a whole blog/tangent. I will soon and be ready for it because it's going to be passionate/

Eleanor Rigby

My new favorite song.


Wow I had no idea how amazing this song was!

My Hair Is Wet

I'm about to go blow dry my hair. For those of you not in Nacogdoches Texas right now it is 2:07 am.

I don't give a fuck.

Hot Dude of the Day/Bacon Bra/Four Hour Naps

Today I was not feeling good at all during my classes. I spent all day in utter stomach turmoil before I was able to get to a bathroom. Then I just felt so tired so I went to my room after lab to take my nap that I had planned into my day. So I took the nap and was awoken at like 9 pm(so I overslept). I started to study and then I checked my facebook and Katie had left me a message at like 730 that said "wake up and study because that's why you didn't hang out with us" and so I was like "sorry I didn't know napping was illegal" and she was like "its not that naps are illegal you just couldn't go cause you didn't have time and had to sudy, but you had time for a nap. that was the point."

Now I love Katie alot, but this really upsets me. I'm fucking sick and I have a fucking test tomorrow. I know she's probably upset because I couldn't go to Prince Eric's game but I really can't control the fact that I have a test tomorrow. I guess she wasn't trying to hurt me but that response seems really vehement. I really hope she's not mad at me and I am sorry that I wasn't able to go to prince Eric's softball game. I wasn't even able to study in the library because of my stomach. Whatever I'm going to take a shower and then finish reading and studying and then go to bed.

Very Rare Bouts of Insomnia

Like the title says I am having a very rare bout of insomnia. I'm actually very sleepy but I had some shit that had to be done before I could go to sleep. I'm so ready for it to be the weekend. I am hoping and praying that I will be able to get caught up on all my schoolwork this weekend. I am drowning in papers and tests and online assignments and quizzes. I swear I'm going to need a stack of scantrons just to get through the month of April. I am ready for it though. I am ready to really work hard and just get it over with. So I won't be on the president's list. Big fucking deal I have four more semesters left for that shit.

I really truly do feel alot better now that I have seen my dad. I am such a daddy's girl! I have my whole day planned out tomorrow!!! I'm going to leave you all with it and then I'm going to beddy!!!

9:30 am- wake up/get ready
10:15 am- drop off my samples at the lab and then get some cigarettes and diet dr. pepper in before class
11-2 pm- class!!!
2-3:00 pm- go to the library and finish studying for biology lab/ get any handouts that I missed from Dr. Escobars office
3:00-4:30-Biology Lab
4:30-5:15- dinner with Jordan, Marie and Allison
5:30- naptime
7-8:00 pm- Wake up and go to the library
8:00-12:00 am- Study Time!!!!!!!! Cram for English Exam
12-2:00 am- shower/facebook/blog/SLEEP!

Bring it on!

Pee Wee

I got to see my dad today and I really do feel alot better! I just hope that the feeling lasts for the rest of the week. I got my stool samples too which is good. I'm sure everybody on my blog wanted to know that. I also got a new cell phone so you can call me!!!!!!!!! 972-804-9914 in case you want to call!

My dad had some bad news though. As you all know I am the proud mother of the cutest kitty cat boy in the world his name is Weezer Cuomo Cavnar and he was born July 3 2005. He has a baby brother named PeeWee whom we also adopted and my dad just informed me that PeeWee went missing last Friday March 28 at around 6 pm. I am sooooooooo devastated. I'm just praying that he will come back because I love him soooooo soooooooooooooo much!!!!! I'll put a picture of him up for you all to see and so that you too can pray for his safe return!!!!!!!!!

The Doctor

I went to the doctor today. I just felt so bad I couldn't take it anymore. I waited for like thirty minutes in this really dark lobby and read parents magazine only because there was this article with steve carell in it. Then I went to see the doctor and he felt my stomach and then gave me this special diet that I need to be on. Then he made me go to the lab and just so I don't make this post too graphic I have to put some stool into these vials and take them back tomorrow. I must say I'm not very excited about that. Not at all. The lady thought I was retarded because she gave me this thing to catch the stools and I was like "what?!?!" and she was like "WELL THIS IS A STOOL SAMPLE!" and I was like yeah I get it but it doesn't make it any less disgusting and/or humiliating.

Anyways I'm gonna take a shower and do my homework.

Some people are mad at me right now. I said I was sorry and I don't know what else to say because I truly am sorry. I just don't feel good and my emotions spilled out like a tornado.

Hot Dude of the Day

"MakeDamnSure"You've got this new head filled up with smoke And I've got my veins all tangled close To the jukebox bars you frequent{They're} the safest place to hideA long night spent with your most obvious weakness You start shaking at the thought you are everything I want 'Cause you are everything I'm notAnd we lay, we lay together just notToo close, too close (How close is close enough?)We lay, we lay together just notToo close, too closeI just wanna break you down so badlyWell I trip over everything you sayI just wanna break you down so badlyIn the worst wayMy inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit, it talksIt says, "You, oh, you are so cool."Scissor shaped across the bed, you are red, violent redYou hollow out my hungry eyesYou hollow out my hungry eyesAnd we lay, we lay together just notToo close, too close (How close is close enough?)We lay, we lay together just notToo close, too closeI just wanna break you down so badlyWell I trip over everything you sayI just wanna break you down so badlyIn the worst wayI just wanna break you down so badlyWell I trip over everything you sayI just wanna break you down so badlyIn the worst way (worst way){I bite my tongue. I take my time and}I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leaveNo, you won't ever get too far from meYou won't ever get too far from meI'll make damn sure that you can't ever leaveNo, you won't ever get too far from meYou won't ever get too far from meYou won't ever get too far from meYou won't ever get too far...I just wanna break you down so badlyWell I trip over everything you sayI just wanna break you down so badlyIn the worst way (worst way)I'm gonna make damn sure I just wanna break you down so badlyI just wanna break you down so badly (damn sure)In the worst way (worst way)

The Truth Is You Could Slit My Throat

I feel like shit. I know you all probably think that I'm a hypochondriac or something but honestly I spent all night shivering and shaking and sweating in my bed. On top of that I'm having some serious gastro-intestinal upset. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me because this is the second time this past week I've been sick and the second time I've had these same exact symptoms this past month. James said it might be from stress, and I mean I'm stressed out alot but I don't think I have so much stress that it would make me physically ill. Ugh whatever. I'm tired of it I really am.

Ya'll are probably also thinking "well it's because she's drunk" but I'll have you know I haven't had a drop to drink since thursday night. I don't plan on drinking anytime soon either. I decided that if I spend 6/7 nights of the week drunk then I probably should cool it. The funny thing is I make it to class a lot more often with a hangover than without.

Anyways I'm going to go take a shower and then go check my mail to see if my phone has made it.......................I've spent almost 7 whole days without a cell phone. I didn't even think that was possible!!!!!

Haircuts & Bras

Yesterday was interesting to say the least. It was showcase Saturday and I woke up at around one and went to have a cigarette and there were like 900000000 people in the Steen Lobby yelling and in my way. So then I took a shower and was going to study but it just so happens that one of the rooms on my floor was being used as a tour room and so people were so damn loud so I went to the library for about an hour just to write up some flashcards and catch up on some English readings. Then I went over to Hall 14 to see Jenaynay but she was really busy so I went over to Katie's apartment in Garner and then we went and had lunch and picked Jen up so that we could go to Lufkin because Katie really needed a new bathing suit. While we were at Target somehow Jen convinced me to buy a bra and it's the first real bra I've had in like 2 years and I really like it although I must say it's really rough not even being a B-cup but oh well.

Then we went back to Nacogdoches and went to Hastings and this is when the night took a turn for the worse. We were in Hastings talking to Erin because she was working and probably bored out of her mind and I was telling a story or something and I kept hearing these guys behind this shelf mocking me so finally I had enough and I was like "HEY ASSHOLES! I CAN FUCKING HEAR YOU!" and they were like "what did we do we weren't even talking about you!" and so then I literally yelled at the top of my lungs at them and then stormed out of Hastings. I really haven't been that angry in a long time. So then we went back to Steen and I checked my facebook because I had added this guy that I thought was cute who lives in Jen's dorm and I had seen him around before. Well anyways we had messaged back and forth for a while and then he asked if I wanted to hang out which I assumed meant like go out somewhere so I was like "yeah that sounds great, where do you want to hang out?" and these were his exact words verbatim: "My room! I stay n Hall 14 461! U can come later 2nite! How late u goin b up 2nite? U can jus stay if u want!" I mean seriously I know I'm not the most innocent looking girl in the world but does this guy honestly think that I am going to come over to his room and spend the night and I don't even know him?!?!?!?!?! I was so angry. So Katie and I decided to rent movies and get a lot of food. So we started to watch the movie when Jamesie came by because we had told him we would cut his hair because he has his baptism/confirmation today(which is why I'm up so early blogging by the way). Well anyways we cut his hair and we were laughing so hard because he looks like Julie Andrews from the sound of music. Like when he saw it he goes "I look gay!!! I look sooooooo gay!" and we were like "James you are gay" but I mean the more I get used to it the better it is and I learned what my mistake was I accidentely cut his bangs way too short, but oh well. Needless to say I don't think he'll ever come to me for a haircut again. Well I have to get ready to go to the church for his baptism. If you read this far you truly are my hero!

You Never Call Me When You're Sober

I'm not trying to be cynical but I hate spring in Nacogdoches. There are way too many creatures. Huge raccoons that prowl the dumpsters at night and attack at will, Ants the size of hamsters, Cockroaches that could eat your face right off, and mysterious ninja frogs and lizards that try to jump on you while you're outside trying to enjoy a cigarette. Don't even get me started on the rogue squirrels that are always trying to steal your food!!!!! I hate it!!!!!!!!!!

Last night was pretty good. Katie, Erin, Jen, Kory and I went to see Alvin and the Chipmunks and it was such a cute movie!! Even though it was a movie about talking and singing chipmunks it was still really funny. Then after that Jen, Erin, Katie, Marie, Allison and I stayed and watched Sweeney Todd which I must say is a fucking kick-ass movie!!!! It's really really really gruesome and I love it!!!!!

Anyways here's a funny story to leave you all with:

Erin and I were outside of Steen waiting for James to come down because we were going to walmart because erin needed a new fan and I needed some cigarettes and I was smoking this swisher sweet cigar because I was obviously out of cigarettes and this guy walked by and was like "Are you smoking a blunt?!?!" and I was like "yep" and then he walked into steen and about five minutes later he came back out and was like "can I take a few hits?" and erin and I started laughing and I was like "I was just kidding man it's just a cigar" and he laughed and was like "damn man you had me convinced!!" and then walked away. It was so funny!

I Am Wasted But I'm Ready!

Last night was one of the worst nights of my life. I am never drinking again.

Hot Dude of the Day

Yay for Kory getting drunk with us!!!!! Yay for buttercups!!!!!!!

About A Boy

I'm still very homesick, but this post is not about that it's about my day so get ready!

I woke up at nine like I said I would and I went to all of my classes like I said I would. I'm very proud of myself. I went to biology lab and saw hot lab assistant and it was just me and this boy named dwight who is very funny. I was glad potato head bitch didn't come. The experiment took forever and I was so glad to get out of there. Then I went to the cafeteria to see my homegirls Marie, Jordan, and the infamous Allison Percival. Then I went with Katie to check my mail and my keys finally came in so I gave the spare one back to the front desk. Then I went and had a real dinner with Jenaynay, Eriniqua, and Kory and then my stomach started to hurt. I went back to Steen and then Katie came to see me and we went to Cane's and I didn't have any chicken because I am poor and poor people eat in the cafeteria. Then we went to Wal-mart to load up for the partayyyyy tomorrow night. Poor people drink beer. Then I went over to Hall 14 to study for the bio test tomorrow. Jen and I were in the study room with Rachel and some really weird dude who was super smart. We left to take a break and Rachel shut the door and we were locked out for thirty minutes waiting for the hall director to come back with the keys. Now I am so fucking tired I could just pass out but I decided I'll just take a shower and fix my hair so I won't have to worry about it tomorrow. Besides I still have some reading to do for English tomorrow. I'm so far behind that I'm literally frightenend. It's my own fault.

I really just don't care anymore. I'm so ready for this semester to be over. I'm so ready to have a real job so I won't be so fucking poor anymore. Anyways here are some funny things that happened today:

I went to James' room to bum a smoke and it took him like five minutes to answer the door and I was like "what are you doing? and he was like "looking at porn" and I was like "ewwww were you jacking off?" and he was like "hhahahaha yea" so I Was like "can I just have a cigarette real quick?" and he was like trying to hand me one and I was like "oh hell no let me get it myself!" and then I ran away.


Then when I was in biology lab I was asking Dwight about this guy that I've known all semester but I've only known him as T.O because he looks like Terrel Owens and that's what all the guys in the dorm call him and then last night Marcus tried to tell me his name was Conception and I didn't believe him and then I asked Dwight and Dwight was like "Yeah that really is his name, what was his mama thinking?!?!"

Anyways I'm off to shower and then I'm going to read and get some much needed sleep. If I go to bed by two I will get eight hours of sleep exactly and that will be very very very very very nice!

Finding Five Dollar Bills

I am so home sick. I just got back literally less than three days ago and I was crying last night because I want to be home so bad. It doesn't help that my phone went missing and so now I'm without my lifeline to the world. My stomach hurts all day long. Why can't I just be home right now? Why am I even here? What the fuck's the purpose of being here when I spend all my time hating it so much?

I really really really really really really really really really really don't want to go to all four of my classes today but yesterday I was a real bitch and decided to skip the whole day so I've made a pact with myself that I will not miss another class for the rest of the semester. I'm really not looking forward to it. I'm just going to have to come to terms with the fact that in order to reach the goals I want in life I'm going to have to make some sacrifices. God knows I've made so many already. And while I'm on the subject of God have you ever wondered where he is when you really really really really really just need somebody there?!?!? Sometimes I really feel God with me and other times it just all goes to shit and I begin to question my very existence in this universe.

Whatever I'm off to class.

I Want You So Bad

I'm so tired. I don't even want to be awake right now.

Every time I call somebody I always forget the reason I called them or I forget to tell them something important. Anyways it's library nap time.

Monday

Monday.



Ughhhhh I wish I didn't have to wake up. The only reason I even got up this morning is because I wanted to shave my legs before Jen and I went to the pool after class today. I hope it's not cold out. Is it? Oh my gosh it's fifty degrees out. So much for that idea.

Hot Dude of the Day

My Stomach Hurts

Today was very boring. I have nothing interesting to write about. I have nothing interesting to say.

My brother came home. James has been taking a nap for like 3 hours. I think I have food poisoning. We were supposed to dye eggs but I think my mother just went to sleep which makes me very angry. My brother has been a real dickhead all day.

I miss Nacogdoches and all of my homies.

What Would You Do If I Sang Out Of Tune?

We saw baby Zachary yesterday and I must say that he is so freaking cute. At first he didn't talk very much but he warmed up and was talking to all of us and saying our names. He really loves my dad and he sat next to him in his highchair. My dad had got some soup and Zachary really liked it and everytime my dad went to eat some Zachary would go "DAVID!" and then laugh. I swear he ate more than I did including like a whole piece of cheesecake. He ate some chicken and mashed potatoes and he drank out of this little cup with a straw.

After we ate we went outside and we were all smoking and this old woman came up to me and was like crying saying she needed money to get to Tyler to see her sick sister at the hospital or something. So I gave her a fucking ten dollar bill because I felt so bad for her and then the woman drove off in her car and the hostess from the restaurant came out and was like telling us how that woman does that to everyone and how the cops never get there in time. I was so pissed. I wanted to murder that woman for making me feel so bad for her that I gave her a ten dollar bill. It's bullshit.

Anyways once we got home James and I drank some and then walked to the lake and watched the stars but then it got really cold so we came back to the house. We called James' little brother on the phone and he's a real big pervert. Then we watched Golden Girls and passed out. Now I'm going to take a shower so that we can get the hell out of this town.

I Have Decided

My drink of choice is vodka.

Where Can I Find a Woman Like That

my new tattoo............

fuck you

Door Decorations & Easter Break

So Erin and I redecorated our door. You have to see it to believe it. It's even more amazing than the last door decorations.

I've been pretty busy lately just getting through life. I will post more tomorrow after I get home and clear my head. James will be with me so expect some pretty funny posts about that later!

Hot Dude of the Day

Motherfucking Kip Mooney.

If you don't know him.............fuck you!

Too Tired

too tired to even type.

The End

So in a few more hours spring break will officially be dead and buried. I'm sorry for the lack of quality posts lately, but I was busy. Time to pack and shower off the debris.

What Am I Ready For?

Summer

Oh God am I ready.........

Do You Wanna Ride or Die

I've already gotten through fifty slides that I needed to study, and now the only thing I have to do is find out which slide I have to study to. Then read the correlating chapters, then finish reading that stupid book for history. I'll be done. Tomorrow I'm going to go out next to the creek and get a nice tan. I'm tired of being pale, and I'm not going to pay the 60 dollars to artificially tan when it's free to sit outside and get all the skin cancer you want. Why pay for skin cancer? If I ever get skin cancer one day I want to look back at all the times I sat next to the beach and how much it was worth it. I don't want to look back at a dark tanning bed where I sat all alone.

My grandmother is getting on my last nerve. My sister is making tuna fish. My father has not called me today.

Welcome to my life.

Hot Dude of the Day

Chris Carabba

Brenda's Got a Baby

Last night I learned that my friend Natalie is pregnant......again. I don't know what to think of this, and I don't approve of the decision because she's not married and the baby's daddy is a stripper. So Cindy told me to just leave her alone because that's all I can do. I feel like this semester has been so good for me because I have made such amazing friends and they are such positive influences in my life. They are there for me when I am sad (late nights at iHop) and they always make me happy (Golden Girls and accompanying me outside when I need a cigarette. Even though I'm not the most positive influence on them majority always rules and these are three kick ass girls! I really do want to be there for natalie, but sometimes these things hurt so much. To see that baby with her would hurt a lot. So for now I'm just going to ignore it, I have like 7 months to contemplate whether I want to be in her life or not, because the hard part is not being pregnant. That's the fun part.

Anyways I'm done with the sordid. My spring break has been pretty kick ass. I've been sleeping alot, and my sister took me to this amazing barbeque place last night. The only problem was after I ate the meat I was so tired I was like in a coma all the way home. My grandmother has been a real bitch, but as long as you close the door to her room she doesn't really talk to you.

Well I'm going to do a face mask because I have this really horrible zit like next to my mouth and it looks really bad.

Hot Dude of the Day

This is Evan he lives next door to me. Hot? I think so! A dude? Yep!

If there's a bustle in your hedgerow, don't be alarmed now

So last night was weird to say the least. We went to watch the mavericks rockets game downstairs and the dudes that had the guns that one night were like staring at us and whispering. So we went back to my room. Then we went to James' and said goodbye to him since we probably won't see him today and I am sad.

I'm so ready to be out of nacogdoches, but what am I going to do without Jen, Erin, Katie, James, and Mariezy?!?!?! It's snowing in Nacogdoches right now, hell has officially frozen over!

I Can Literally Smell Spring Break

I am so tired of being in Nacogdoches. Jen, Katie, Erin and I all are. We have literally just one more night together before spring break and we're going to make the most of it!!! I have one more midterm and then I'm out of this town!

I just got done working, I didn't go to biology today which is fine because Jen said we had a substitute and that he was this old man and he looked like he was going to die.

Anyways it's study time. I have four hours to just get it done, and get on with my life.

Hot Dude of the Day

This is James world.

James this is the world.

Men

I hate men today. I hate penis' I hate hairy armpits I hate the smell of old spice I hate boxers I hate hypocrites I hate not being drunk.

The only man I don't hate today is James.

We had an inadvertent girls night. I wish Katie was talking to us again.