Parent's Day 2008/Almost the Greatest Football Game EVER!

Basically just got back from a very exciting SFA game. It would have been even better if we had won! Oh well. Today Jerret and I spent a large portion of time walking around antique stores in downtown Nac with my mother. I know Jerret was probably bored out of his skull, but I totally was too! I am just so happy that I got to see my parents and I don't think this day could have been any better!! Too bad I have like the worst gas ever!!! Thanks alot Butcher Boys!!!! My dad was getting really crunk at the game though! It was really funny. I also saw Erin and her parents and Kory Blandford.

Now I am about to take a shower because I am all sweaty and tired and I definitly need an energy drink.

* SUPER EDIT! *

So I totally forgot to put that Coleman (Jerret's older brother) was at the game. He was wearing a bright yellow shirt, a tie, black slacks, and tennis shoes(?!?!) lmfao. So then we saw him leaving and so I ran after him but Coleman walks really fast so Jerret and I made it to the parking lot just as Coleman was getting into the KTRE minivan and pulling away. I was very sad about this!

My Stomach Hurts

Today was very boring. I have nothing interesting to write about. I have nothing interesting to say.

My brother came home. James has been taking a nap for like 3 hours. I think I have food poisoning. We were supposed to dye eggs but I think my mother just went to sleep which makes me very angry. My brother has been a real dickhead all day.

I miss Nacogdoches and all of my homies.

Waking Up To Another Day

My parents came to see me for a belated birthday weekend. They brought my stinky brother too. My mom made me a cake and we all went to church. Jen came too and it was the longest mass in all of the history of the world. Then we went to Jalapeno tree which is the third day in a row Jen has been there. Second day in a row for me. I was starving because I hadn't eaten since the day before. My brother told me I looked like an alchoholic drug addict who had been on a binge all weekend. Katie met us at Jalapeno Tree and it was a really good time because we had the same waiter as last time and he's just the nicest guy.

Then I gave my parents a tour and they left and I was sad.

I woke up this morning before my parents got here to take a shower and noticed the staggering amount of bruises on my arms and legs from the night before when James and I fought. I had text messaged him 14 times last night about how I never wanted to see him again. We were very mad at each other today and I seriously never wanted to see him again but before my parents left I was sitting with my dad outside of Steen because he was smoking a cigarette and James walked down the front steps and he gave me the meanest glare and I was like "OH HEY JAMES! This is my dad" and then James had to be nice to me because I mean it was my dad. So then I asked him if he was mad at me and he said he wasn't and I told him he beat me up and he said he didn't remember. So he had to leave for work and I said goodbye to my daddy and then went up to my room and texted James that I wasn't mad at him and that he really did beat me up, he still didn't believe me until I showed him all the bruises tonight. He finally apologized and I think we're even better friends now because of it. We decided that we probably shouldn't drink together and if we do that we shouldn't be so violent. Then he came back to my room for like 3 hours and I straightened his hair and we watched funny videos on youtube.

I really do love James but when I'm drunk I want to choke him and punch him for some reason. I get so angry, and I think it's because he's normally so docile and doesn't fight me back. It's really funny though because all day I've been telling people about how my gay friend beat me up.

Katie Tortilla Head

Ugh today was so boring. I am so tired of studying and reading and highlighting and taking notes and listening and reading really good poetry and thinking it means one thing but then learning it means something else completely different.

I'm tired of it. We went to Jalapeno tree today and we were all starving (Jen, Erin, Katie, Me) and so they brought us all the free tortillas and I was throwing them like frizbees to everyone and Katie was like "you eat it!" and I was like "no Katie take it!" and I threw it into the air and it fell right on Katie's head like a little Tortilla hat. It was so funnnnnnny! Then there was this old man at the table behind us and his phone went off and his ring tone was "Girls just want to have fun" and we laughed soooooooooooooo hard. I'm sorry that is one of the funniest things ever. Then as we were walking out there was this poor lady with an eye deformity and I tried to get my ice cream and it spilled everywhere and then as we were walking out Katie goes "I WAS TRYING NOT TO LOOK AT THAT WOMAN'S EYE!!!!!" and I was like you are so going to hell in a handbasket!!!!! Although I don't think she will. God Bless that woman, I'm going to say a prayer for her tonight.

Then I studied for a while and then talked with Jen at hall 14. We were studying but I seriously give up on biology. Everything I study flies out of my head the second it gets there. I really need spring break because at this rate things are not looking good. I thought Christmas break would help me, but I really think after spring break I will have my shit together. I have a glorious week to study for my test and Chesley's going to help me I'm going to make flashcards and study guides. I am going to make a 100 on this test if it's the last thing I ever do. I've decided that the president's honor roll is not going to happen this semester, but next semester when I am science and math free I am going to definitely be on it. I just have never excelled at math or science so I have accepted it. I am still striving for Dean's List which shouldn't be impossible at all at this point.

I had my first day of work today and I read a quiz for a blind girl. She has the cutest seeing eye dog. I felt like a real asshole though because I had just drank this big ass diet dr. pepper and I really had to pee so I just left her standing there and then I realized she had to sign my time sheet and she was like "I was just waiting for you" I was like "wow I'm an asshole"...................

Anyways longest blog post ever!!!! I am going to take a shower now and go back over my bio flashcards for lab tomorrow. Tomorrow's lab looks like one of the worst ever. I am so not going to like tomorrow. I don't even want to go to sleep that's how bad tomorrow looks! Yay for Thursday(my party) and Sunday(mom and daddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!0

Nobody Even Reads This!

I've decided nobody reads my blog. That's fine because if it weren't my blog I probably wouldn't read it anyways. In two days I turn twenty. Try to wrap your head around that. I know I can't. I'm excited to see my parents this weekend. I have our whole day planned out in my head:
1)They arrive at around 10 am and then I show my mom my room and how clean it is and then we go to church at 11 am
2)12-12:30- We get out of church and then I give them the full campus tour
3)2-We take a drive around Nacogdoches and maybe go to the azalea gardens even though the flowers probably won't be blooming
4)We have dinner at my favorite restaurant
5)They give me my brand new car
6)We say goodbye and they leave and I cry

(Number 5 is not going to happen)

Other things that I need to do this weekend:Study for History Test, Study for my Government Test, Start reading that stupid book for History, Go over English Notes etc. etc.

I have so much tooooooooooo do!

Oh here's a funny story that you all will enjoy:
Katie(My BFF 1.0) knows this guy names prince Eric(asshole 5000) and somethign happened last weekend that was really rude on his part so to get him back I prank called him whilst I was drunk like 10 times. So he got all mad about it because he's like 39(his actual age!) and told Katie that I was pissing him off. Screw him. I'm sorry that you're 39 and don't know how to have fun. I'm sorry you're 39 and still a jackass. I'm sorry you're 39 and give 19 and 20 year old girls shots of patron. I'm sorry you're 39 and still in college.

What a dickhead.


Anyways fuck this blog.

I Am Half Sick of Shadows

My father really made me mad tonight. I hate the fact that when things go bad he cares so much, but when things are going good he doesn't give a shit. I'm not talking to him for the rest of the weekend. I just really want to be left alone. If you want to call and criticize me just save your breath because I really just don't care.

For the next six days I am going to be a teenager and I'm going to act like one. I'm going to drink on weekdays and I'm going to act like I know everything even if I'm searching for the answers. I'm going to stay up late and wake up late. I'm going to laugh at things that are funny and cry at things that hurt me. I'm going to be continuously searching for the meaning to things, only to find out that they mean nothing.

I just can't wait for my mother to be here next sunday. I know I bash her sometimes, but there are just times in a girl's life where she needs her mother. Fathers are good for some things, but mothers understand, whereas fathers are always trying to understand. Some things in life you can't just try, you have to do them.

I gave myself tatoos tonight. I busted down a door only to realize that it was the wrong one. I drew naughty pictures on Katie's dry erase board. I drank five beers and smoked a cigarette. I made prank calls and told secrets. I had a good night, and nobody can take that from me.

Ugh

I've been sick all day, and had uncontrollable diaherea which is gross to put on my blog I know, but I mean I just want you all to know how much it has really sucked.

Then I was on the toilet for like 30 minutes and my mom calls and is like "I'm supposed to meet your dad at LaMadeline and he hasn't called me and I just don't know where he is!" So I tried to call like three times and I called her back and was like "I can't get a hold of him what if he's dead?!?!" and she was like " I hate you , why do you say stuff like that!??!" so she calls me back three times to tell me what a bitch I am for saying that and how she still can't get a hold of him. Then finally she calls and is like "he left his cell phone at home, he's here".

My mom has got to be the world's biggest B&#$@, she acted like it was my fault that he was dead and didn't answer his phone! So now I just took some more pepto bismol and I'm about to go back to Jen's room which is where I was watching movies when I had to come back to my dorm because I didn't want to have diaherea in the community bathrooms in hall fourteen.

Sometimes You Wanna Go.............

I'm really homesick today and I don't even know why. I just miss being home where there's always food and money(well not always). I miss being at home where people can be mean sometimes but at least you know they love you. I miss being home where I can watch every mavericks game with my dad. I miss being home where I can take trips to Wal-Mart with my mom. I miss being home where I can sleep for 15 hours undisturbed. I miss being home where someone else washes my dirty clothes. I miss my little Weezer boy and Mama Kitty. Sometimes I wish Weezer boy lived in my dorm room so that I could just hold him and kiss him whenever I want. It would totally be worth having to clean out his stinky cat box. But knowing my luck he would end up loving my roommate more that me. I miss my daddy and my mom.

I'm just really homesick. Anyways my roommate hates me now in case anyone was wondering or cares. I'm seriously considering just ending it all today. Slitting both my wrists open or swallowing a whole bottle of benadryl. Ohhhhh last night in the cafeteria they had these delicious blondie brownies with m&m's. So that made my night, and I got to hang out with homegirl Marie. She's totally going to write an article with a quote from me!!! So everyone should pick up the pine log thursday!!!!!

Okay well I have to go get ready for biology. Everyone have a good day, more later!