Parent's Day 2008/Almost the Greatest Football Game EVER!

Basically just got back from a very exciting SFA game. It would have been even better if we had won! Oh well. Today Jerret and I spent a large portion of time walking around antique stores in downtown Nac with my mother. I know Jerret was probably bored out of his skull, but I totally was too! I am just so happy that I got to see my parents and I don't think this day could have been any better!! Too bad I have like the worst gas ever!!! Thanks alot Butcher Boys!!!! My dad was getting really crunk at the game though! It was really funny. I also saw Erin and her parents and Kory Blandford.

Now I am about to take a shower because I am all sweaty and tired and I definitly need an energy drink.

* SUPER EDIT! *

So I totally forgot to put that Coleman (Jerret's older brother) was at the game. He was wearing a bright yellow shirt, a tie, black slacks, and tennis shoes(?!?!) lmfao. So then we saw him leaving and so I ran after him but Coleman walks really fast so Jerret and I made it to the parking lot just as Coleman was getting into the KTRE minivan and pulling away. I was very sad about this!

Sobriety

Today is my dad's seventh year being sober! I'm so happy for him! I have literally the best dad in the whole entire universe. He came to see me today and I just love that I can tell him everything and anything, that he's always there when I need him I know if I cry he'll be there for me. I LOVE MY DADDY!

Pee Wee

I got to see my dad today and I really do feel alot better! I just hope that the feeling lasts for the rest of the week. I got my stool samples too which is good. I'm sure everybody on my blog wanted to know that. I also got a new cell phone so you can call me!!!!!!!!! 972-804-9914 in case you want to call!

My dad had some bad news though. As you all know I am the proud mother of the cutest kitty cat boy in the world his name is Weezer Cuomo Cavnar and he was born July 3 2005. He has a baby brother named PeeWee whom we also adopted and my dad just informed me that PeeWee went missing last Friday March 28 at around 6 pm. I am sooooooooo devastated. I'm just praying that he will come back because I love him soooooo soooooooooooooo much!!!!! I'll put a picture of him up for you all to see and so that you too can pray for his safe return!!!!!!!!!

Do You Wanna Ride or Die

I've already gotten through fifty slides that I needed to study, and now the only thing I have to do is find out which slide I have to study to. Then read the correlating chapters, then finish reading that stupid book for history. I'll be done. Tomorrow I'm going to go out next to the creek and get a nice tan. I'm tired of being pale, and I'm not going to pay the 60 dollars to artificially tan when it's free to sit outside and get all the skin cancer you want. Why pay for skin cancer? If I ever get skin cancer one day I want to look back at all the times I sat next to the beach and how much it was worth it. I don't want to look back at a dark tanning bed where I sat all alone.

My grandmother is getting on my last nerve. My sister is making tuna fish. My father has not called me today.

Welcome to my life.

Ohhhh Look Free Stuff!

I forgot to add that my parents, brother and I drove around downtown Nacogdoches and we drove past a goodwill and they had this trash pile outside and my dad was like "Ohhhhh look free stuff!" I laughed for 15 minutes straight.

Waking Up To Another Day

My parents came to see me for a belated birthday weekend. They brought my stinky brother too. My mom made me a cake and we all went to church. Jen came too and it was the longest mass in all of the history of the world. Then we went to Jalapeno tree which is the third day in a row Jen has been there. Second day in a row for me. I was starving because I hadn't eaten since the day before. My brother told me I looked like an alchoholic drug addict who had been on a binge all weekend. Katie met us at Jalapeno Tree and it was a really good time because we had the same waiter as last time and he's just the nicest guy.

Then I gave my parents a tour and they left and I was sad.

I woke up this morning before my parents got here to take a shower and noticed the staggering amount of bruises on my arms and legs from the night before when James and I fought. I had text messaged him 14 times last night about how I never wanted to see him again. We were very mad at each other today and I seriously never wanted to see him again but before my parents left I was sitting with my dad outside of Steen because he was smoking a cigarette and James walked down the front steps and he gave me the meanest glare and I was like "OH HEY JAMES! This is my dad" and then James had to be nice to me because I mean it was my dad. So then I asked him if he was mad at me and he said he wasn't and I told him he beat me up and he said he didn't remember. So he had to leave for work and I said goodbye to my daddy and then went up to my room and texted James that I wasn't mad at him and that he really did beat me up, he still didn't believe me until I showed him all the bruises tonight. He finally apologized and I think we're even better friends now because of it. We decided that we probably shouldn't drink together and if we do that we shouldn't be so violent. Then he came back to my room for like 3 hours and I straightened his hair and we watched funny videos on youtube.

I really do love James but when I'm drunk I want to choke him and punch him for some reason. I get so angry, and I think it's because he's normally so docile and doesn't fight me back. It's really funny though because all day I've been telling people about how my gay friend beat me up.

Katie Tortilla Head

Ugh today was so boring. I am so tired of studying and reading and highlighting and taking notes and listening and reading really good poetry and thinking it means one thing but then learning it means something else completely different.

I'm tired of it. We went to Jalapeno tree today and we were all starving (Jen, Erin, Katie, Me) and so they brought us all the free tortillas and I was throwing them like frizbees to everyone and Katie was like "you eat it!" and I was like "no Katie take it!" and I threw it into the air and it fell right on Katie's head like a little Tortilla hat. It was so funnnnnnny! Then there was this old man at the table behind us and his phone went off and his ring tone was "Girls just want to have fun" and we laughed soooooooooooooo hard. I'm sorry that is one of the funniest things ever. Then as we were walking out there was this poor lady with an eye deformity and I tried to get my ice cream and it spilled everywhere and then as we were walking out Katie goes "I WAS TRYING NOT TO LOOK AT THAT WOMAN'S EYE!!!!!" and I was like you are so going to hell in a handbasket!!!!! Although I don't think she will. God Bless that woman, I'm going to say a prayer for her tonight.

Then I studied for a while and then talked with Jen at hall 14. We were studying but I seriously give up on biology. Everything I study flies out of my head the second it gets there. I really need spring break because at this rate things are not looking good. I thought Christmas break would help me, but I really think after spring break I will have my shit together. I have a glorious week to study for my test and Chesley's going to help me I'm going to make flashcards and study guides. I am going to make a 100 on this test if it's the last thing I ever do. I've decided that the president's honor roll is not going to happen this semester, but next semester when I am science and math free I am going to definitely be on it. I just have never excelled at math or science so I have accepted it. I am still striving for Dean's List which shouldn't be impossible at all at this point.

I had my first day of work today and I read a quiz for a blind girl. She has the cutest seeing eye dog. I felt like a real asshole though because I had just drank this big ass diet dr. pepper and I really had to pee so I just left her standing there and then I realized she had to sign my time sheet and she was like "I was just waiting for you" I was like "wow I'm an asshole"...................

Anyways longest blog post ever!!!! I am going to take a shower now and go back over my bio flashcards for lab tomorrow. Tomorrow's lab looks like one of the worst ever. I am so not going to like tomorrow. I don't even want to go to sleep that's how bad tomorrow looks! Yay for Thursday(my party) and Sunday(mom and daddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!0

Nobody Even Reads This!

I've decided nobody reads my blog. That's fine because if it weren't my blog I probably wouldn't read it anyways. In two days I turn twenty. Try to wrap your head around that. I know I can't. I'm excited to see my parents this weekend. I have our whole day planned out in my head:
1)They arrive at around 10 am and then I show my mom my room and how clean it is and then we go to church at 11 am
2)12-12:30- We get out of church and then I give them the full campus tour
3)2-We take a drive around Nacogdoches and maybe go to the azalea gardens even though the flowers probably won't be blooming
4)We have dinner at my favorite restaurant
5)They give me my brand new car
6)We say goodbye and they leave and I cry

(Number 5 is not going to happen)

Other things that I need to do this weekend:Study for History Test, Study for my Government Test, Start reading that stupid book for History, Go over English Notes etc. etc.

I have so much tooooooooooo do!

Oh here's a funny story that you all will enjoy:
Katie(My BFF 1.0) knows this guy names prince Eric(asshole 5000) and somethign happened last weekend that was really rude on his part so to get him back I prank called him whilst I was drunk like 10 times. So he got all mad about it because he's like 39(his actual age!) and told Katie that I was pissing him off. Screw him. I'm sorry that you're 39 and don't know how to have fun. I'm sorry you're 39 and still a jackass. I'm sorry you're 39 and give 19 and 20 year old girls shots of patron. I'm sorry you're 39 and still in college.

What a dickhead.


Anyways fuck this blog.

I Am Half Sick of Shadows

My father really made me mad tonight. I hate the fact that when things go bad he cares so much, but when things are going good he doesn't give a shit. I'm not talking to him for the rest of the weekend. I just really want to be left alone. If you want to call and criticize me just save your breath because I really just don't care.

For the next six days I am going to be a teenager and I'm going to act like one. I'm going to drink on weekdays and I'm going to act like I know everything even if I'm searching for the answers. I'm going to stay up late and wake up late. I'm going to laugh at things that are funny and cry at things that hurt me. I'm going to be continuously searching for the meaning to things, only to find out that they mean nothing.

I just can't wait for my mother to be here next sunday. I know I bash her sometimes, but there are just times in a girl's life where she needs her mother. Fathers are good for some things, but mothers understand, whereas fathers are always trying to understand. Some things in life you can't just try, you have to do them.

I gave myself tatoos tonight. I busted down a door only to realize that it was the wrong one. I drew naughty pictures on Katie's dry erase board. I drank five beers and smoked a cigarette. I made prank calls and told secrets. I had a good night, and nobody can take that from me.

Ugh

I've been sick all day, and had uncontrollable diaherea which is gross to put on my blog I know, but I mean I just want you all to know how much it has really sucked.

Then I was on the toilet for like 30 minutes and my mom calls and is like "I'm supposed to meet your dad at LaMadeline and he hasn't called me and I just don't know where he is!" So I tried to call like three times and I called her back and was like "I can't get a hold of him what if he's dead?!?!" and she was like " I hate you , why do you say stuff like that!??!" so she calls me back three times to tell me what a bitch I am for saying that and how she still can't get a hold of him. Then finally she calls and is like "he left his cell phone at home, he's here".

My mom has got to be the world's biggest B&#$@, she acted like it was my fault that he was dead and didn't answer his phone! So now I just took some more pepto bismol and I'm about to go back to Jen's room which is where I was watching movies when I had to come back to my dorm because I didn't want to have diaherea in the community bathrooms in hall fourteen.

Studying......

So I have a test tomorrow so no posts probably tonight at all!!! Sorry :( I saw my dad today though!!!!!!!

Wednesday

So today sucked. I hated today. First of all the Mavericks are going to trade Devin Harris. That makes me sad because he's my fav. I love him. Also I did really shitty in biology and I sit next to this dude and all he does all flipping class is talk about what losers everyone else is. It really gets me down. My lab assistant is still hot though. He was totally talking about spermenation or something, it was hot. He's hot.

Then I went to dinner with Marie and Jordan and something so horrible happened that I can't even write it in my blog. So then I did a video confession about my day in Jordan's room. Then we took crazy pictures.

I really wish that I had something interesting to talk about but I really don't. My daddy is coming from D-town to visit me tomorrow so I am happy about that!!!

Hot Dude of the Day

Hahahaha that's my dad.

Sometimes You Wanna Go.............

I'm really homesick today and I don't even know why. I just miss being home where there's always food and money(well not always). I miss being at home where people can be mean sometimes but at least you know they love you. I miss being home where I can watch every mavericks game with my dad. I miss being home where I can take trips to Wal-Mart with my mom. I miss being home where I can sleep for 15 hours undisturbed. I miss being home where someone else washes my dirty clothes. I miss my little Weezer boy and Mama Kitty. Sometimes I wish Weezer boy lived in my dorm room so that I could just hold him and kiss him whenever I want. It would totally be worth having to clean out his stinky cat box. But knowing my luck he would end up loving my roommate more that me. I miss my daddy and my mom.

I'm just really homesick. Anyways my roommate hates me now in case anyone was wondering or cares. I'm seriously considering just ending it all today. Slitting both my wrists open or swallowing a whole bottle of benadryl. Ohhhhh last night in the cafeteria they had these delicious blondie brownies with m&m's. So that made my night, and I got to hang out with homegirl Marie. She's totally going to write an article with a quote from me!!! So everyone should pick up the pine log thursday!!!!!

Okay well I have to go get ready for biology. Everyone have a good day, more later!

Mondays

I hate mondays. No this is not going to be a long list of things I hate, I just wanted to put that out there. I fell asleep during my Government class and drooled all over my notes. I made it to all of my classes though which was a miracle. Then I met this poor guy and he was walking around without any shoes. So I was like "where are your shoes homeboy?" and he was like "they died" and I thought maybe he was pulling my leg so I was like "seriously though where are your shoes?" and he was like "they fell apart" and I was like "well don't you have a backup pair?" and he was like "well I have a pair of broken flip flops and I'm going to tie some cloth around them so they will last me until I make some money" I was like so sad for this boy. Then I saw him walking out of the building without any shoes. I called my dad to tell him and he said that I should have offered to buy him a pair of shoes, and I guess I should have. I don't know what I was thinking I'm always too concerned if someone is messing with me.

Anyways I am really very tired right now so I am going to play a game on the computer, and then read for English tomorrow, and then go to sleep foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I <3 MY DADDY! And I don't think he's a jerk.

Cleaning

So my room is now nice and spiffy clean, but I'm pooped. Our bathroom looks so clean and fresh!! Erin bought a new bath rug and I spent like two hours scrubbing the filth from the shower. Now I'm about to take a shower and get ready to study and then go out tonight to see one of my good friends Lizzie!!! I haven't seen her since before Christmas and she totally moved away and so it might be my last time to see her for a while!!!!

I talked to my dad earlier and he was kind of being a little rude on the phone because he's sick. I'm sorry he's sick, but that doesn't mean he can be rude!!!!! I swear whenever men get sick they are always so dramatic!!!!!!

Also I'm pretty sure my Aunt Mary commented!!!!!!!!!! Basically my favourite Aunt of all time!!! So shout out to her, even though I haven't seen her in a million years!!!!