Parent's Day 2008/Almost the Greatest Football Game EVER!

Basically just got back from a very exciting SFA game. It would have been even better if we had won! Oh well. Today Jerret and I spent a large portion of time walking around antique stores in downtown Nac with my mother. I know Jerret was probably bored out of his skull, but I totally was too! I am just so happy that I got to see my parents and I don't think this day could have been any better!! Too bad I have like the worst gas ever!!! Thanks alot Butcher Boys!!!! My dad was getting really crunk at the game though! It was really funny. I also saw Erin and her parents and Kory Blandford.

Now I am about to take a shower because I am all sweaty and tired and I definitly need an energy drink.

* SUPER EDIT! *

So I totally forgot to put that Coleman (Jerret's older brother) was at the game. He was wearing a bright yellow shirt, a tie, black slacks, and tennis shoes(?!?!) lmfao. So then we saw him leaving and so I ran after him but Coleman walks really fast so Jerret and I made it to the parking lot just as Coleman was getting into the KTRE minivan and pulling away. I was very sad about this!

Dreamscapes

First and foremost I would like to say hi I have a headache. Second I need to talk about this really weird dream I had last night.
*DREAM*
Katie, Erin, James and I decided we were going to go to this barbeque place because Katie's dad had recommended it. So of course in the dream I was very wasted and we go into the barbeque place only to find out it's a japanese barbeque and not like texas barbeque. So James sits down and starts eating this weird grilled whole fish. Well just as the rest of us are getting our food Katie's dad like comes into the restaurant to surprise her. That really has nothing to do with the rest of the dream I just thought it was kind of weird because I've never even met Katie's dad lol. Well them I start to eat my Japanese soup but I am eating it with chopsticks and so I spill some on katie's jeans and she starts yelling at me about how it's going to stain and she doesn't have any spray and wash. Then I start yellingback that soup doesn't stain! Then I like storm out of the restaurant and go to this really cold bus depot and sit outside on a bench with a blanket waiting for a train to take me away.
*END OF DREAM*

I used caps lock because I think it's very important to always seperate reality from my twisted subconcious. There was also a part in my dream where I was at a club and I was dirty dancing with plies but that's besides the point.

Last night was such a good night!!!! First Jerret and I played some 007 on the N64 then we played mario kart and then we had power hour. The best part of the night I think though was during 007 when we were playing this really lame level and we had decided to go through all of the weapon choices so we were on sniper and this particular level we could never find each other. So Jerret starts like rapping to the beat of the music and the song goes a little something like this:

"Dark Chocolate" (this is a temporary name btw)
starring: Lil Wayne, Plies, Missy Elliot, Chris Brown, and Justin Timberlake

Dark chocolate (ahhhhhhh)
Dark chocolate (ahhhhhhh)
Dark chocolate dark chocolate dark chocolate

Fucking all night
Dark chocolate
Fucking all night
Dark chocolate

(there's a lot more in the middle we just haven't come up with it yet)

Then we made up a verse for Missy Elliot:
You want some choclate chips?
Jump on my chocolate hips
Then suck my chocolate nips
Come get yo suga fix

That's all we have so far. Jerret also has another song called Ceo's and seceratary hoes. GOD I AM SO HUNGRY I HOPE MY PARENTS GET HERE SOON!

Chillin @ Whataburger

Tonight was......................................

really weird to say the least. First of all Katie and I studied at the student center. Then we came back to the apartment and watched some Cops which we both like because it's an amazing show. Then we went to whataburger which is what we planned on doing. Unfortunatly when we got there BOOGIE was there! Not only that but he was there with that little hoodrat. I was really angry. I kept my cool though because I just didn't even feel like getting crunk! Well then I went outside to smoke a cigarette and as thier car drove away I screamed "FUCK YOU BOOGIE". Because I hate him.

Then we proceeded to wait for an hour for Vyron to get to work only for him to be all in a bad mood and totally diss me. So I told Darryl this other really nice guy that works at Whataburger to tell Vyron that I was real sad. Then we came back to the apartment and I just gagged down two nyquil and hopefully I'm about to pass out.

I'm really sad that Jerret left for the weekend but I'm glad that I have the most amazing friends ever: Katie, Erin, Kory and Mary and that they sat with me while I waited to see Vyron. Katie was really nice about it and I love her alot! IDK what I would do without her!!!

Oh and also while we were waiting Kory told us the three most retarded stories ever. First of all I had a hard time taking him seriously because he was wearing swimming trunks and I know he wasn't going swimming. Then he told us these stories about when he used to work at Jack in the Box and the only good part to the stories was when someone threw a big ass cup of strawberry fanta on him. He's still definitly the coolest guy in the universe which is what we figured out tonight at Whataburger.

Greek Plays Suck

I just took my book test over the 7 famous greek plays. Bombed that shit. Technically it's only like 2% of the final grade though so I think I'll be fine. I just kept reading and reading and like nothing would process in my brain. Even when I was alone by myself reading it there was still this internal monologue going through my head of everything. Just random crap would start going through my mind and I would come to the realization that even though I had been reading for 30 minutes I didn't know what the funk I had just read. That's really going to have to change soon. I mean not everything that I'm going to read in college is going to be interesting but processing this information into my brain is really important.

It's so hot outside I don't know how much more of this whack ass nacogdoches weather that I can take. Last night there was a fire drill in Steen and I really needed to get my book out of my room but the stupid bitch wouldn't let me go into the even tower even though it was the odd tower that was having the fire alarm. I was super pissed because that meant that Katie and I had to stand outside in the like 90 degree muggy ass weather for a good thirty minutes and I just about wanted to start a real fire in the dorm just because I was so angry.

After we studied Jerret and Katie and I went back to Erin and Katie's apartment and made pizzas and then Jerret and I played this really fun game that Danielle and I used to play in high school. We spent like three hours just laughing and asking the most retarded questions and after about 10 minutes I just decided to be a total lesbian and I had to start picking like which actress I would rather have sex with and it was just sooooooooooo funny. Katie even had to tell us to be quiet because she was trying to sleep and she's been really sick and even had to stuff nosepons in her nose to keep the snot from dripping. We finally passed out at like three AM and Jerret was on the air matress and I was sleeping on these two really big pillows but like our heads were facing each other and I kept feeling Jerret's hand smack my face like all night long! Thanks Jerret!! Then I was awoken this morning by Huxley trying to chomp my hair and then he stepped on my face with his big ol puppy paws.

I do have like a really good piece of news: Jerret said he would let me meet his brother!!! I am so excited because I have never met a real life celebrity before (well besides Adam Lazzara from Taking Back Sunday and Bill Clinton) but I kinda wish I hadn't met Bill Clinton because then I got really sick with diahread and I'm pretty sure I had his diseaseeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I'm now contemplating whether or not I want to go sit outside in the heat and wait for Jen and Erin or just sit here in the library facebook stalking.

Oh yeah I almost forgot that I went to see my hubby Vyron at whataburger last night and he wasn't even working!!! I was sad :(.

Red Sox Fans, Hector, and Terrence

Erin and I had so much fun at the game last night!!! There was this very drunk red sox fan that basically made the whole night. He was the biggest douchebag in the world and that made it even funnier. Then Erin and I went to find the starbucks in the stadium and this mean guy yelled that they closed it down then erin wanted the ice cream in the little baseball helmet and they don't have those anymore either!! So then I flirted with this super hot dude named Terrence who worked at the cold beer stand. Then we went to get Ice Cream and this other hot dude named Hector basically wanted to have sex with Erin.

We had a great weekend. Check the facebook!

Tawakoni

Last night Erin and I arrived in Tawakoni at like 9:45. Not after many adventures though of course. We stopped at this one gas station and they just so happened to have those condom dispensers with the different types of condoms and lubes. So we bought like three of them and then made the guy that works at the gas station take a picture of us with them. Then we had to stop at this really sketchy gas station outside of Tawakoni and I was scared because there were daddy long legs. Then we finally made it to my house after the following playlist:

Plies
Miley Cyrus
Love Song
Hannah Montana 1&2
Spice Girls

We woke up at like 9 30 and then we walked to the lake and got aids on our feet probably because we dipped our feet in the lake. Then we called Jerret and Katie and laughed at Jen's text messages because she spelled question "guestion". Now we're watching wife swap. We're bored obviously but tonight is the rangers/redsox game so it's going to be amazing!!!

Boogie's That Need to be Picked

Wow. Where do I even begin with today? Let's start with hot bicycle dude. Erin was driving me to school today because she's an amazing friend and as we were driving up University we saw this guy on a bicycle. Erin was like "Is he wearing a shirt?!" Because we were behind him and all you could see was his backpack so I assumed he was wearing a tank top or something. So then we passed him up and I was like "OMG nooooooo!!!" he was probably the hottest bicycle dude I've ever seen and I've seen a lot of hot bicycle dudes in my day! So then we were stopped at the red light and I rolled down the window so that I could wolf whistle at him except he had his ipod in so it just looked like I was staring at him. This is the best part: he totally smiled at me!!!! I almost died!!!!!

After that Erin pushed me out of the car in front of the tennis courts and I sat and watched Jerret and this hot black dude play tennis for like 20 minutes. Then I went with Jerret to his Communications class and ran into Boogie. Then Boogie called me a punk ass and I told him to go fuck himself. Then I was really happy. Because I hate him. I changed my mind and I don't love him anymore.

There's some other news but I totally don't want to blog it right now.

I went to the language lab and did some French stuff which basically involved me playing the little French soccer game and basically getting every answer wrong. I hate French. Then I came back to the apartment and played with Huxley for like an hour which was fun because he was acting psychotic. Now I'm just playing some super mario brothers and I'm about to rule this game.

I will be in Tawakoni tonight!!! YAY!!!!!!! Can't wait to see my little weezer baby boy!!!!!

PS- Katie is sexy.

I Changed My Mind

First item of business:

Erin and I went to Taco Bueno and I really wanted this 99 cent cilantro lime rice because it's like the rice at chipotle and it's really good so we ordered it and the guy was like "well we're all out of that" and I was really depressed but then when we got to the window he was like "do you want a free smoothie?" and Erin and I were like "hells yes please!" So as we were drinking the smoothie we were driving back to Erin and Katie's apartment and this freaky old guy waved at us and Erin and I agreed that freaks are attracted to us like magnets and that when we're together they are doubly attracted to us. Case in point: Miah and Phillip.

So anyways I have a great plan for tomorrow so that I can "accidently" run into a certain someone who is going to be getting a little piece of my mind. This involves skipping tennis again but whatever.

Also today while Jerret and I were at schlotzkys katie called and she was really upset so then I went with her to the quack shack and they drew some blood and as we were leaving there was this long line to get into the clinic and I was like "well good thing you'll have the test results back from your STD screening Katie!" I was trying to embarass her but we just laughed. I am praying that all of her results come back okay and that she starts to feel better because I gotta have my BFFL feeling good!!!!

Hurricane Gustav

There is totally a hurricane headed for Nacogdoches as I type this. I will probably be dead before the morning light. I'm in a very dramatic mood.

I woke up this morning just feeling like absolute shit (not physically but mentally). I don't know what it is with me but I have like severe mood swings where one second I will be perfectly happy and the next thing I know the tiniest of things will set me off crying. Sometimes I don't even know what it is I am crying about. It's just sometimes no matter how happy I am or how much fun I am having I just feel like there's something really fucked up with me. Like there's a part of me that's missing or something. It's weird because I honestly have no idea what it is. It gets me into these funks. I'm not really worried about them because they usually only last a couple hours and I cry and get over them but it happens four or five times a week.

This has officially been the most depressing blogpost ever..........

Anyways my pinky finger which I thought I broke is doing a lot better. The swelling has gone down and it's not as colorful as it was. It's kind of hard to type and to write still but I think I'll be 100% in a couple of days.

One more item of business before I go to bed and finish reading the taming of the shrew (which is pretty damn funny btw but I like the Heath Ledger movie wayyyy better sorry shakespeare).

Today I was in one of my moods so I kind of just wanted to be alone so Katie and I went to Wal Mart. We talked for a long time and we just got a lot of things out in the open that needed to be out. I know that Eriniqua is upset at me and I want to say sorry to her but I just think it's better if I leave everyone alone for a while and just focus on school and finding a job because basically every single friendship/boyfriend/thing in my life I always find ways to fuck it up. EVERYTHING. I'm like the mirror opposite of king midas. I'm tired of fucking shit up so from now on I'm just gonna do the right things always and be perfect. I know that will never happen but I'm at least going to strive for it.

OMG! It's officially september!

I'm pretty sure I spelled officially wrong. Okay I spell checked it and we're all good. We're going to have the drunkest person of the night contest and I definitly think that goes to jerret becau:se he was a making out fool.

Things that happened today:

1) I made out with Vyron at whataburger
2)Jerret and Katie got into a fight and it was funny
3) Jen walked in on me butt naked in the bathroom
4) Mary booty danced on basically everyone
5) My finger is all swollen and jacked up and then katie's fingers got all swollen and jacked up too
6) I thought I won the lottery only to realize that it was eighteen and not eight

Good times

Peace Easy!!!

Boys

Boys are pointless and only cause problems. Let's just be real I'm not planning on getting married anytime soon so why should I even be worried about it. I have my whole life to meet someone. There's no point in getting sad or jealous about somebody.

I just got the most amazing e-mail from Tammy with little sound bites of Zachary singing and saying his prayers at night. Sooooo cute.

Here are some highlights from the first week of school:

1) Tennis with Jerret and our old ass teacher who played in the very first wimbledon
2) Spending every night at Katie and Erin's apartment
3) Laughing all night with Katie and making up rap songs about everyone
4) Not knowing shit in french and laughing at the douchebags that think they do
5) Flashing all the guys outside of Hall 16
6) Seeing hot dudes play shirtless soccer on the intramural fields
7) Seeing hot dudes in general
8) Making matching t-shirts for the game on Saturday
9) Creating new dance moves with Jerret
10) Erin's dog chomping on my face
11) Seeing Erin in her bra
12) Making hamburgers and then smelling the stinky rotten beef smell coming from the grill everytime we went outside
13) Going to lake nac and learning all about Kory Gengo
14) Having my friends fight over who would come get me after Boogie left me in tears

I'm so glad that I am back with everyone here. I've decided that you're born with a family (mom dad brothers sisters etc) but then when you get to college you have a chance to pick a second family. They are alot like your real family in that you enjoy the same things and they are there for you and they don't judge you and you do everything together but you kind of appreciate them more because you are the one that got to pick them out.

I AM BACK!

So I'm back and better than ever bitches!!! I am so excited about the upcoming school year!!! Some things I am excited about:

1)Sceduled naptimes
2)Being back in Steen
3)Having a job and making money!!!
4)Getting a new roommate!
5)Seeing Eriniqua and Jenaynay
6)Jenaynay's b-day
7)Erin's b-day
8) Lunches and/or dinners with Marie and Jordan and Allison!
9)Allison living in Steen!!!
10)Jerret living in the same tower of Steen!!!!!!!
11)Getting drunk on weekdays
12)Coming up with new ideas for reality shows with Jerret
13)Taking 300-level English classes finally!!!
14)All new teachers!!!
15)$1 dollar movies
16)Meeting other creepy guys at the Ag Pond late at night
17) Write Club meetings w/Luke and Dr. Whatley!!
18)Raising hell in Hall 14 with Jen again!!!!
19)Barfing on random guys towels at the Shack!!
20)Hot new freshmen man meat!!!

Now I am going to go do some more facebooking and tv watching!

Fun Times Fishing!

Erin, Katie and I just got done fishing and I caught three fish with my amazing Barbie fishing pole that Erin bought me! Then Katie caught a big ass perch and Erin caught a little baby perch! It was sooooooooooo much fun!!! Tomorrow we're definitly going to catch catfish fa sho!

Wednesday Nights

Blah. That's all I have to say about that. I'm working on my paper right now and I just need one more paragraph before I start editing(which is 50% of the writing process!). It took me less that thirty minutes to get all the words onto the page. I'm impressed with how well I work under pressure. I just kill myself!

Anyways something very interesting happened to me today. I was in Einstein's buying a diet dr pepper before biology lab because I was super thirsty as hell (by the way I went to all of my classes today woot woot!). So some random ass guy comes up to me talking about how I bit his neck at the sports shack that one thursday when I got really shitty. I just couldn't believe it! I was sooooooooooo embarassed. Then he said he told his friend he was "about to get up on me"!!!! SICK! I want to say that he's a total creep but I guess I'm the one that bit his neck! So weird. Just soooooooooooooooooooooo weird the things that I do when I am drunk!

Well at least I've stopped drinking for the time being because I was starting to scare myself(and Katie, Erin &Jen).

So tonight I am going to Prince Eric's softball game (that's if it doesn't rain!) and i'm sure it will be just tons of fun!!!!!!!!!!

Argh I'm so needing to finish my paper, but I think I'll go grab a smoke really quick first!

My Weekend In 60 Seconds

The internet is still not working in my room. I'm about to go crazy. I decided I'll make a short post about my weekend:

Friday-Katie and I had a deal that if we went to all of our classes we would get our drinks on Friday night. Which we did. I got crazy and Katie and I got into a fight and so I left and went to Marcus' room where I proceeded to make a fool of myself. He kicked me out of his room and I was really sad so I went to find James who had left about an hour before that(I didn't know) and so I pounded on his door for ten minutes thinking that he was ignoring me, then I passed out in the hallway. Erin came and tried to wake me up but couldn't so then she got Cory and this guy Adam who are both friends of Marcus' to help take me back to my room.

Saturday- Katie, Jen and I were hanging out basically all day, we went to the pool with Erin and got on some of the two seater floats to go down the lazy river and we started a "slut train" and at one point had like 12 people on the slut train with us. Later that night we went to IHOP and some old bitch yelled at us.

Sunday- Soooo boring. Went to church then Katie and I spent 5 hours at the pool where we both got sunburns. Erin, Katie, James and I hung out but then I got really sleepy and went to sleep early(which for me is 12:30). We didn't even get to watch talk sex!

Now I just got out of class and I'm about to go to Katie's so that we can come to the library so she can do her homework or something. I'm starving my ass off and I look like a fucking tomato because my face is red. The worst part is that I was wearing sunglasses and so now I have red cheeks, a red forehead, and white eyes!! Whatever.

Haircuts & Bras

Yesterday was interesting to say the least. It was showcase Saturday and I woke up at around one and went to have a cigarette and there were like 900000000 people in the Steen Lobby yelling and in my way. So then I took a shower and was going to study but it just so happens that one of the rooms on my floor was being used as a tour room and so people were so damn loud so I went to the library for about an hour just to write up some flashcards and catch up on some English readings. Then I went over to Hall 14 to see Jenaynay but she was really busy so I went over to Katie's apartment in Garner and then we went and had lunch and picked Jen up so that we could go to Lufkin because Katie really needed a new bathing suit. While we were at Target somehow Jen convinced me to buy a bra and it's the first real bra I've had in like 2 years and I really like it although I must say it's really rough not even being a B-cup but oh well.

Then we went back to Nacogdoches and went to Hastings and this is when the night took a turn for the worse. We were in Hastings talking to Erin because she was working and probably bored out of her mind and I was telling a story or something and I kept hearing these guys behind this shelf mocking me so finally I had enough and I was like "HEY ASSHOLES! I CAN FUCKING HEAR YOU!" and they were like "what did we do we weren't even talking about you!" and so then I literally yelled at the top of my lungs at them and then stormed out of Hastings. I really haven't been that angry in a long time. So then we went back to Steen and I checked my facebook because I had added this guy that I thought was cute who lives in Jen's dorm and I had seen him around before. Well anyways we had messaged back and forth for a while and then he asked if I wanted to hang out which I assumed meant like go out somewhere so I was like "yeah that sounds great, where do you want to hang out?" and these were his exact words verbatim: "My room! I stay n Hall 14 461! U can come later 2nite! How late u goin b up 2nite? U can jus stay if u want!" I mean seriously I know I'm not the most innocent looking girl in the world but does this guy honestly think that I am going to come over to his room and spend the night and I don't even know him?!?!?!?!?! I was so angry. So Katie and I decided to rent movies and get a lot of food. So we started to watch the movie when Jamesie came by because we had told him we would cut his hair because he has his baptism/confirmation today(which is why I'm up so early blogging by the way). Well anyways we cut his hair and we were laughing so hard because he looks like Julie Andrews from the sound of music. Like when he saw it he goes "I look gay!!! I look sooooooo gay!" and we were like "James you are gay" but I mean the more I get used to it the better it is and I learned what my mistake was I accidentely cut his bangs way too short, but oh well. Needless to say I don't think he'll ever come to me for a haircut again. Well I have to get ready to go to the church for his baptism. If you read this far you truly are my hero!

You Never Call Me When You're Sober

I'm not trying to be cynical but I hate spring in Nacogdoches. There are way too many creatures. Huge raccoons that prowl the dumpsters at night and attack at will, Ants the size of hamsters, Cockroaches that could eat your face right off, and mysterious ninja frogs and lizards that try to jump on you while you're outside trying to enjoy a cigarette. Don't even get me started on the rogue squirrels that are always trying to steal your food!!!!! I hate it!!!!!!!!!!

Last night was pretty good. Katie, Erin, Jen, Kory and I went to see Alvin and the Chipmunks and it was such a cute movie!! Even though it was a movie about talking and singing chipmunks it was still really funny. Then after that Jen, Erin, Katie, Marie, Allison and I stayed and watched Sweeney Todd which I must say is a fucking kick-ass movie!!!! It's really really really gruesome and I love it!!!!!

Anyways here's a funny story to leave you all with:

Erin and I were outside of Steen waiting for James to come down because we were going to walmart because erin needed a new fan and I needed some cigarettes and I was smoking this swisher sweet cigar because I was obviously out of cigarettes and this guy walked by and was like "Are you smoking a blunt?!?!" and I was like "yep" and then he walked into steen and about five minutes later he came back out and was like "can I take a few hits?" and erin and I started laughing and I was like "I was just kidding man it's just a cigar" and he laughed and was like "damn man you had me convinced!!" and then walked away. It was so funny!

About A Boy

I'm still very homesick, but this post is not about that it's about my day so get ready!

I woke up at nine like I said I would and I went to all of my classes like I said I would. I'm very proud of myself. I went to biology lab and saw hot lab assistant and it was just me and this boy named dwight who is very funny. I was glad potato head bitch didn't come. The experiment took forever and I was so glad to get out of there. Then I went to the cafeteria to see my homegirls Marie, Jordan, and the infamous Allison Percival. Then I went with Katie to check my mail and my keys finally came in so I gave the spare one back to the front desk. Then I went and had a real dinner with Jenaynay, Eriniqua, and Kory and then my stomach started to hurt. I went back to Steen and then Katie came to see me and we went to Cane's and I didn't have any chicken because I am poor and poor people eat in the cafeteria. Then we went to Wal-mart to load up for the partayyyyy tomorrow night. Poor people drink beer. Then I went over to Hall 14 to study for the bio test tomorrow. Jen and I were in the study room with Rachel and some really weird dude who was super smart. We left to take a break and Rachel shut the door and we were locked out for thirty minutes waiting for the hall director to come back with the keys. Now I am so fucking tired I could just pass out but I decided I'll just take a shower and fix my hair so I won't have to worry about it tomorrow. Besides I still have some reading to do for English tomorrow. I'm so far behind that I'm literally frightenend. It's my own fault.

I really just don't care anymore. I'm so ready for this semester to be over. I'm so ready to have a real job so I won't be so fucking poor anymore. Anyways here are some funny things that happened today:

I went to James' room to bum a smoke and it took him like five minutes to answer the door and I was like "what are you doing? and he was like "looking at porn" and I was like "ewwww were you jacking off?" and he was like "hhahahaha yea" so I Was like "can I just have a cigarette real quick?" and he was like trying to hand me one and I was like "oh hell no let me get it myself!" and then I ran away.


Then when I was in biology lab I was asking Dwight about this guy that I've known all semester but I've only known him as T.O because he looks like Terrel Owens and that's what all the guys in the dorm call him and then last night Marcus tried to tell me his name was Conception and I didn't believe him and then I asked Dwight and Dwight was like "Yeah that really is his name, what was his mama thinking?!?!"

Anyways I'm off to shower and then I'm going to read and get some much needed sleep. If I go to bed by two I will get eight hours of sleep exactly and that will be very very very very very nice!

Door Decorations & Easter Break

So Erin and I redecorated our door. You have to see it to believe it. It's even more amazing than the last door decorations.

I've been pretty busy lately just getting through life. I will post more tomorrow after I get home and clear my head. James will be with me so expect some pretty funny posts about that later!

Brenda's Got a Baby

Last night I learned that my friend Natalie is pregnant......again. I don't know what to think of this, and I don't approve of the decision because she's not married and the baby's daddy is a stripper. So Cindy told me to just leave her alone because that's all I can do. I feel like this semester has been so good for me because I have made such amazing friends and they are such positive influences in my life. They are there for me when I am sad (late nights at iHop) and they always make me happy (Golden Girls and accompanying me outside when I need a cigarette. Even though I'm not the most positive influence on them majority always rules and these are three kick ass girls! I really do want to be there for natalie, but sometimes these things hurt so much. To see that baby with her would hurt a lot. So for now I'm just going to ignore it, I have like 7 months to contemplate whether I want to be in her life or not, because the hard part is not being pregnant. That's the fun part.

Anyways I'm done with the sordid. My spring break has been pretty kick ass. I've been sleeping alot, and my sister took me to this amazing barbeque place last night. The only problem was after I ate the meat I was so tired I was like in a coma all the way home. My grandmother has been a real bitch, but as long as you close the door to her room she doesn't really talk to you.

Well I'm going to do a face mask because I have this really horrible zit like next to my mouth and it looks really bad.